ShafiraH;D

! SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING !

2010-10-18T21:12:00.000-07:00

; i really miss them ),=

~ assalammualaikum ~

; hey there , sorry for not updating .
; i've been busy & also lazy ( cant deny that ) haha .
; life has been good so far .
; as usual , moving on no matter what happened .
; it do hurts , but nahh , the pain will go away one day rite ? god's willing .

; so yeah , do have some family probs , not as in fight or quarrel .
; but , looking at them in that situation really hurts .
; how they suffer everyday , goshh , really pity them .
; why are human beings so evil ?
; arent they scared of GOD ?
; dont they noe that no matter how happy they are , when they die , they are really gonna suffer by god's punishment ?
; goshhh , really hate this people very much .

; forget bout that .
; holidays have been so bored .
; wanted to work , have been asking cuzzies bout it .
; they will try to help .
; hope i will get it asap .
; need money now man !
; been staying at home like a zombie .
; comp , tv , eat , sleep .
; thats what i do everyday .
; hmmmm , k la .
; till here first .
; take care people .
; will be updating again tonight .
; hopefully .

; takecare
; byebye
(=

! UNCONDITIONAL LOVE !

2010-09-17T04:29:00.000-07:00

; i dunnoe why but i feel like sharing something here .

; sometimes it hurts to leave someone whom you treasure . it takes time to forget that person but dont they noe that we are suffering ? i thought we were just normal friends . you called me , texted me whenever u want . you said its nothing wrong coz we are just friends . but , i felt something different . i felt that one day you are gonna leave me alone without any reason . with you , my life was full of happines . you teach me the meaning of HAPPINESS . you made me laugh , smile &&& there was no sadness at all . you gave me motivation in whatever i do & always remind me that i should always make a right decision . i was shocked when the first time we talked otp for the first time coz i noe that you hate girls . starting that time , i den knew how sweet you were . you accompany me when i was alone at home & chatted with me for like hours ? yeahhh .

; i miss all that , seriously . when i looked at the video , i felt something . i felt that my heart is broken . how stupid i was to scold you becoz of something small . if it wasnt becoz of the PRANK , i swear we would still be happy now . hmmm . i cant deny my feelings . my friends even told me to do something bout us . but im scared . im scared that im gonna loose youuu like how i used to loose the others . so , i thought that we should just be bestfriends . but it was even worst . just the PRANK that made me suffer .

; how i wish you understand my feelings coz u really wanted to noe that before we became like this .

~ i love youuu (a) ~

; with love , shafirah

! LONG TIME NEVER UPDATE !

2010-07-02T21:25:00.000-07:00

, HELLO (=
, firstly
, i would like to apologise for not updating like how many months .
, im so sorry as i was busy with something .
, from now onwards , i promise to update BUT , i will only do it on weekends ayee ?

, so
, these days had been feeling so gloomy .
, but friends had been trying to make me happy .
, they did it !
, currently , busy with school works .
, timetable have been very tight .
, will go home at nearly 5 plus everyday as i have to finish up D&T .
, seems to be very tired .
, hmmmmm )=
, but its okaaay !
, have to persevere for like 3 months ?
, &&& everything will be over (=

, bro's are not back home yet .
, they will be back on 6th july .
, they must be enjoying at cambodiaa rite now .
, not fair . , they never tagged me along )=
, hmpf !
, nvm , will wait for my turn den .

, todae ?
, will be going out later .
, going somewhere with DOLTS &&& AFA .
, hope to have fun with them .
, gonna meet them around 4 pm ?
, will be back at nite then .
, poor mummy alone .
, sorry mummy .
, will be back soon when im done okaay .

, k la . , until here first k .
, will be back to post about the outing later on .
, byebye .
, take care .

, may be peace upon you (=

, i miss youuu badly ),=

! SEMOGA ALLAH MENCUCURI RAHMATMU !

2010-04-18T02:35:00.000-07:00

Abdillah Murad Md Shari
[ achik spin ]

i was seriously shocked when i heard the news .
honestly , he is my favorite artist / actor .
he is the best artist in malaysia .

i hear his songs when im sad ; i watch his movies whenever i wish to .
now , the only thing i can do is PRAY for him & just watch his video everyday without miss .
hmmmmmmm , i seriously cried when i was watching his videos ) :
omgawdddd .
i really miss him .
its difficult for me to believe that he is nowhere in this world anymore .

SEMOGA ALLAH MENCUCURI RAHMATMU !

! HOPE EVERYTHING S GONNA BE FINE !

2010-03-19T19:42:00.000-07:00

, i dunnoe why , but this is the nicest pic ever .
, the THICK & THIN both of us went through ;
we still manage to stand up high hugging each other as a BESTFRIEND [:

, hello peeps .
, holidaes is sucks for me .
, have to come straight from monday to friday .
, what the hell ?
, but its actually for my own good too .
, i skip thursday lesson coz i really want to go out with mummy .
, coz , she is not werking on that day .
, i do need to spent time with her too .
, but , we just went to singapore expo .
, hmmmm .

, friday ?
, went to SL meeting .
, ends a bit early > 1 plus .
, so went to eat at bubble tea for a while .
, denden , went home .
, was at home all the way .
, after that , me & family , at last , went to visit grandpa .
, sat there for nearly 45 min & off we go .
, tiitiitiitiitiitiit ; next stop , SWENSEN !
, love it !
, mummy's treat .
, i was full , but i still wanna eat the ice cream .
, haha , but i managed to finish it .
, had our own seet time eating .
, after having a good dinner , went home .
, reached home around 11 plus ?
, i think so .
, planned to sleep but watch tv with bros .
, felt sleepy , went to sleep .
, honestly , friday was AWESOMEEEEEE [:

, i hope everything will be fine [:

! GOOD LUCK AYEEE !

2010-03-17T06:32:00.000-07:00

, todae ?
, had maths in the morning .
, was from 9-12 pm .
, had fun though .
, made cheer & miss saw was smiling when she saw aswan dance .
, so , after maths class , headed home .
, before reaching home , went to mac to buy food as i was craving for it long ago .
, ate double cheese plain & fries .
, watched tv .
, after eating , was playing with the computer all the way .
, denden , 3rd bro woke up .
, as usual , we disturb each other .
, we were teasing each other , wrestling , pillow fight & many more .
, wowww , awesomeeeeee [:
, suddenly mummy came home .
, talktalk .
, denden , mummy planned to bring me out & treat me eat swensen tmrw .
, goshhhhhhhhhh !
, cant wait .
, after eating swensen , we planned to go out .
, yeahhhhhhhhhh [:
, at last get to go out .
, continue to play computer .
, as i was feeling hungry , i told mummy to follow me go & eat 'ah-pom' at the coffee shop near my house .
, eateat , my treat !
, reached home , continue to play comp .
, denden , the most happiest ever , he called [:

, currently , talking to him on the phone .
, ok , got to go !
, until here first k !
, byebye !
, take care !
, goodnite !

, assalammualaikum [:

! LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST !

2010-03-15T08:30:00.000-07:00

, firstly , sorry for not updating .
, dont ever think that my bloggy is dead .
, i just dont have the time to update .

, i actually wanted to say something that is more interesting bout my DOPES & DOLTS .
, but , nahhhh .
, the things that i had been gone through all this while .
, the attention i get from my love ones .
, its sad to talk bout it but i have to .
, i have no one to share my feelings to .
, thanx for the undertanding .

, sometimes , i feel fortunate to have my love ones beside me all the time .
, but , it hurts to see them hurt .
, i tried to get through it but i cant .
, maybe coz i love them too much .
, but , whenever im in need , its difficult for them to understand my problems .
, i need time to calm down , but they dont understand that .
, they are busy with their own things .
, i noe they have their own things to do , but why i can manage but they cant ?
, i just wonder why ?
, goshhhh , tears are rolling down my eyes .
, i just wanna say that i love them .
, but , i do NEED THE LOVE BACK FROM THEM .

, GOD is giving us the symbols that the world is gonna end soon .
, people dying , earthquakes , tsunami , babies that are born uniquely .
, arent you guys wonder why all this happen ?
, i had been dreaming to have babies when i grow up , to see how they talk , smile , walk & eat .
, but i wonder , will it happen ?
, i really , really , really hope so .
, so , lets pray hard to GOD to forgive the mistakes we had done & do remember to trust & believe HIM .

, im also trying to pray hard that GOD will forgive all my mistakes that i had done for the past years when i was born till now .
, i knew that i had done lots of mistakes especially to my love ones .
, i wanna change to be a better person & try to avoid from making sins .
, insyallah [:

, lastly , thanx alot to DOPES & DOLTS & to others who had wrote on the letter .
, thanx for being concern & care so much about my condition .
, appreciate it alot guys .
, THANK YOU VERY MUCH [:

, k la .
, until here first k .
, byebye .
, take care .

, assalammualaikum [:

! ALL I NEED IS YOU !

2010-03-03T06:12:00.000-08:00

, sometimes , i wonder .
, do u noe how much i need youuu ?
, the way you act in front of me is as if youuu are nothing .
, why cant you treat me the same as how youuu did when we go out ?
, are you scared that he will noe .
, come on .
, let bygones be bygones .
, the answers are all in your heart .
, listen to your heart & do what your heart tells you to do so .
, not to listen bout what he is gonna say about us .
, get it ?
, please , i cant be like this all my life .
, i need someone like you .
, i noe that you are currently dissapointed with me due to some reasons .
, hmmmmm , please , do know how i feel .

iloveyou

! MISS THE OLD US !

2010-02-28T03:40:00.000-08:00

, todae was superbbb [:
, woke up & played comp .
, called firah to asked her bout the picnic stuff .
, denden , bathe & get ready .
, exactly at 11.40 am , went to fetch firah under her block .
, we headed to bedok inter & saw shikin at phonebooth .
, waited for those who are coming but it seems only he tong came .
, planned to go shing song .
, sara met us there .
, waited for aswan too .
, we had pichas taken .
, had craps around .
, it was fun .
, headed to firah's house again to sent the things we bougt at her house .
, denden , aswan went home .
, left me , shikin , sara & he tong .
, as shikin & i was very hungry , we planned to eat LJS .
, yumyum [:
, ate , talk & had lots of craps .
, i dont noe why but i just cant eat & will keep on laughing if i look at sara's face .
, goshhhh .
, shikin was like concentrating eating & he tong was focusing on how she eat .
, LOL , haahahhahahahah .
, after eating , we headed home .
, left me & sara .
, he wants me to walk but , nahhh , its too hot .
, he planned to go home with me & take bus 225 .
, he stopped at the 2nd bustop while i stopped as usual .
, reached home , played comp .
, as i was feeling tired , i decided to browse the pics .
, suddenly , i saw the pic below .
, hmmmmmmm :(

, i really really miss the the fun memories
we had together last time :(

! WHAT A LIFE !

2010-02-26T18:23:00.000-08:00

, im back .

, schools are okaaay for this week .
, nothing much .
, had all the tests done .
, pass physics ; was so happy about it .
, i dont think i can pass maths PAL .
, lessons were as per normal .
, BUT , you were not :(

, hmmmm .
, i will forget all the things that had happen within this week .
, i am starting afresh/anew .
, not gonna follow what my friends gonna do .
, as for now , really gonna study hard .
, i really want to proves to mummy that i really wanna go POLY .
, thats my aim .
, i will not be involve in much activities .
, not gonna go out often unless with families [ thats what i had been waiting for but nahhh ...... ]
, hope to concentrate more in class .
, lastly , TRYING TO FORGET YOU .

, i noe i cant .
, but , i can try .
, i noe that you are trying to make me hate you .
, but you cant .
, coz , i will always appear in front of you .
, everything that i do , reminds me of you :(

! HAPPY BIRTHDAE 2nd BRO !

2010-02-19T02:29:00.000-08:00

, firstly ;
, i would like to wish my 2nd brother ,
! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYED HASHREEN BIN SYED KARIM !
, may all your wishes come true ayeee BRO [:

, hmmmmm .
, not fair coz he got a MP3 player from his gf !
, hmpf !
, even mummy never give me seyyy ]:
, but nvm ...

, so , went to school as per normal .
, had physics & i was asked a question but i cant answered .
, goshhhhh .
, denden , got mtl lesson .
, as usual , did malay paper .
, when the clock strikes 9.30 pm , i was so eager to go for recess coz was damn hungry .
, but , i didnt bought anything .
, just a packet of H-TWO-O for me & bestie [:
, ate the food that mummy gave .
, i swear it was damn nice & delicious .
, even bestie love it .
, ouh ya !
, bestie also brought nugget & shared it with me .
, i feed bestie .
, cute rite ? i noe . heheh [:
, i swear i wasnt in a mood at that point of time due to some reasons .
, bestie & hanisah knew it .

, after recess , had the TDD thingy .
, we were supposed to cook maggie , milo & egg .
, so , with the teamwork my class , 412 , had given , WE DID IT !
, i am so happy .
, we were called as the EXTRA SPECIAL [:
, goshhhh , i am seriously glad to be in 412 .
, thanx guys for the cooperation , i noe we can do it !
, took pichas & stuff .

, after that , had a circle time .
, was perky & sad .
, perky about what my class had done on that day ]:
, sad about what happen to one of my classmate ]:
, will be visiting her on sunday .
, we played games after that & had cicle time again .

, when school ends , bestie & me went to Jalan Besar Stadium to take my form .
, i would like to say thousands thanx to my bestie for accompanying me there .
, thank you very much [:
, we had some craps in the mrt .
, only between us , rite bestie ?
, hahahah , that was awesome babe .
, as i was craving for NACHOS for 3 days , i went to the seven-eleven to check it out .
, but , to my sadness , they dont hav .
, hmmmmmmm ]:
, so , bestie told me just to buy mashed potato .
, okaaayyy lorr .

, went back to school & sat with kila , min & nana .
, talktalk bout tmrw .
, we planned something .

, since it was 2.30pm already , they had to go first .
, so , me , min & nadd went to the toilet first de went for odac .
, suddenly ali told me that mr chang was in a bad mood .
, ali told me to run around the field first as usual .
, when i had just finish running 1 round , mr chang told me rto go inside .
, i told him that i had only run for 1 round but he say nvm .
, suddenly he told us something .
, i was shocked bout it .
, okaaay , let it be between the odac people only kaaay ?
, so sorry .

, after that , followed nadd went back to her house .
, den bought snacks & off we went back to school .
, sat with , syafiq , ali , sara & ben .
, had some craps with them .
, ouh ya !
, me & ben get scolded from a teacher for throwing bottle .
, LOL .
, since it was 5 pm , planned to go home .
, went home with fidi & kila .
, tmrw confirm to go out with dolts [:

, k la .
, until here first k .
, tired arhhh .
, sorry .

, take care !
, byebye !
, goodnitex !

, assalammualaikum

, as for youuu > i dont care about you . i wont DIE or feel REGRET to lose a friend like you becoz you are not worth it to me . i only treasure the people who cares & always understand me . not like you , fight over just becoz of a small matter . i noe what i do , so , dont ever interfere in my life anymore . dont ever talk to me . you like to scold people whenever you like & treat people the way you want without even thinking how your friends feel . if you are still behaving like that , you will lose your love ones . just be assure bout that .

i love DOPES & DOLTS only [:
[ also to those that i treasure ]

! VISIT MR TAN's HOUSE !

2010-02-15T02:48:00.000-08:00

, todae ?
, went to my coach house [ mr tan ] .
, his house very , very big leyyy .
, i like !
, i had always been dreaming to have that type of house .

, so , fidi came to my house .
, i mean at the carpark coz uncle sent us to potong pasir mrt station by lorry .
, we had some craps in the lorry .
, uncle treat us drinks .
, wanted to buy something but , nahhhh .
, so , chatted for a while den went straight to the control station .
, met the gerls there .
, halu fetch us with her bicycle & lead the way .
, went we reached , i was like , OMG , i want this house .
, LOL [:
, 3 floor wan leyyy .
, denden , we just sat down suddenly coach gave us angbao ?
, we havent eat yet but he give alredy .
, so yeahh , fidi & my prediction's is true .
, we ate pizza [:
, yumyumyumyumyum .
, we wre all watching this jackie chan movie .
, it was awesomeeee .
, den , talktalk , took pichas .
, rozita , demi & era had to go off first .
, me & fidi decided to go off at 4pm .
, took mrt home .
, reached home around 5 plus i think .
, so yeahhh .
, currently watching tv .
, k la .
, until here first k .

, byebye !
, good nitex !
, take care !

, assalammualaikum

! SORRY DID NOT UPDATE !

2010-02-14T01:54:00.000-08:00

, first of all , i would like to say sorry to my dailyreaders for not updating for 2 weeks ?
, i was busy with schools , family problems , friendship , my personal problem & party .
, i am just simply tired to update .
, i will not tell everything that had happen coz i dont think i have time for that .
, it will only make you guys sleepy .

, firstly , HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY to all my dearest and also to YOUUU [:
, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to all my chinese friends , dont forget to give me angbao also ayeee [:

, someone asked me to go out today but i dont want .
, coz i just knew him for less den 1 month & u want me to follow him arh ?
, u think i no face arh alwaes go after boys ?
, i got maruah okaaay .
, like what hawa told me , get to noe him first . so yeahhh . thanks bestie [:

, so currently alone at home .
, bro's ? of course they will also go out to celebrate valentine rite ?
, but , was shocked to see 3rd bro at home sleeping .
, he is now getting ready to go out with his friend instead of his gf .
, he said that valentine means nothing to him .
, it is just a name for the day .
, i was like , up to u larhh k ?
, hahah .
, but he very good coz today he really make jokes so that i wont feel bored .

, kaaay , skip .
, so yeahhhh , nobody at home now .
, the comp is all mine .
, i am so crazy sitting at home .
, mummy go somewhere .

, sometimes i feel lonely & have no one to talk to .
, why must i care about other people when they dont care bout me ?
, i even told mrs toh my story & to my shockness , she cried .
, was so touched by that .
, i dont even think that my own teacher could cry of my problems .
, i told her not to cry .
, but she said that she didnt noe that i was suffering like that as i was alwaes smiling in her class .
, maybe i dont want people to noe my probs .
, but , if i did not tell anyone , who can i share my probs with ?
, i have nobody in this world that care for me .
, they will alwaes scold me instead of giving me advices to make me cool down .
, so yeahhh , this is the only place that i could let out my probs .
, BLOGGING ~

, i am sorry but i will have to stop here before i start to be a baby crying for milk .
, since nobody is at home , all i've got to do is , SLEEP .
, sleeping is my friend .
, hmmmm .
, k la .

, take care .
, byebye .
, goodnites .

, assallammualaikum

! HAPPY BIRTHADE TAWFIQQQQ !

2010-01-31T05:02:00.000-08:00

! HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TAWFIQQQQQ !

, may your wishes come true .
, semoga jadi anak yang soleh
, panjang umur dan murah rezeki .
, love you boy bestie [:
, take care ayeeeeeeee .

, today ?
, met fidi under my block .
, sorry if im late .
, we were talking bout something .
, yeaahhh , the DOPEYYY .
, such a bitch !
, me & bestie take pics , ate chocolate !
, yumyum .
, after that , she had to go off .
, sent her at the butop & waited for the bus .
, denden , went home .
, was at home all the .
, so boredddd .
, was chatting with firdausi just now .
, so yeahhhh .
, currently , watching tv .
, until here first k !
, see you guys in the next post which will be on the friday 5th february 2010 [:

, byebye .
, take care .
, good nitex !

! THE BIRTHDAE BASH WAS SUPERBBBBB !

2010-01-30T05:14:00.000-08:00

, sorry for not updating .
, gosh , i think today will be a long post then .

, MONDAY ;
, was nothing much .
, nothing much to elaborate .
, lessons were as per normal .

, TUESDAY ;
, was nothing much too .
, went to school with naddd [:
, we were walking all over the school for nothing .
, lessons were normal .
, nothing much ayeee .
, but was the most horrible day after .
, had a big arguments with _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .
, was damn sad & dissapointed of what had happened .
, goshhhhhhh .

, WEDNESDAY ;
, was the horrible day of all .
, didnt talk to her .
, act as per normal .
, went home straight after school [:

, THURSDAY ;
, happiest day ever [:
, i was shocked to see tears from her eyes .
, she came to me & talked to me & suddenly hugged me .
, goshhhh , i miss that ]:
, she bought for me my favourite snack that her mum had cooked .
, we do talk & yahhhh .
, she told me that she can feel how alone she was when i wasnt in her life .
, goshhh , it is so touching to hear that from her .
, we still wanna our FRIENDSHIP to continue .
, like what we said > everybody makes mistakes & you have to learnt from it .
, thanks ayeeeee [:
, you noe who you are BESTIE !
, thanks to choo also [:
, PE ?
, was damn funnnn .
, had to run .
, i scored at stage 7 level 4 or 5 i guess .
, damn tiring siaaa but i LOVE it [:

, FRIDAY ;
, birthday bashhhhhhh !
, it was a bash for TAWFIQ [:
, everything goes well .
, like what we had planned .
, he was shocked as he said that this is the first time his friends is doing all this .
, omg ! dont worry tawfiq !
, we are your family [:
, love you BESTIE !
, loads of pics were taken .
, videos too .
, pics are all in FACEBOOK .
, do take a look yourself k .
, that day was damn SUPERBBBBB !
, the first celebration DOLTS & DOPES had done !

, SATURDAY ;
, woke up in the morning & bathe .
, watch tv .
, after that get ready for religious lesson .
, mummy came home from pasar & bought for me food to eat .
, so happy as she took off today [:
, so , eateat , kiss mummy & off i go to religious class .
, came back & reached home around 12.15pm .
, me , 2nd bro , 3rd bro & mummy had planned to go johor .
, so , went out from home around 3.30pm as 3rd bro borrowed his fren car which can only be used after 3pm .
, was jammed there .
, reached johor , went to AVON shop first with mummy while bros went to eat .
, took about 1 hour ?
, den me & mummy's turn to eat .
, was damn hungry siaaaaaa .
, so yeahhh .
, decided to add petrol .
, bought chewing gums as what GARNDMUMMY [ shakila ] had told me [:
, off we went home /
, reached home at 8 nearly 9pm .
, so , currently blogging .
, my head had been in pain for this few days .
, i told mummy that , could i be suffering from _ _ _ _ _ - _ _ _ _ _ _ ?

, yeahhhh [:
, that was what happen for this week .
, hope to see you in the next post ayeeee [:

, byebye .
, take care .
, good nitex .

! MEMORABLE DAY !

2010-01-23T05:24:00.000-08:00

, wowwww !
, todae was a memorable day !
, wont forget 23/01/2010 [:

, firstly , me & nenek had planned to eat at macdonald near my house .
, we met around 12.30pm .
, there was kila , zizie , efah , nat , elham , tawfiq , angelo & afa .
, mac near my house was full so we planned to go eat at Long John Silver at bedok inter .
, fidi came to join us .
, we ate , talktalk & take pictures [:
, angelo went off , hafiz & felix went to do their d&t , efah & afa went home .
, left me , fidi , kila , elham & natasha .
, i told nenek that i wanted to go tamp popular to buy divider .
, she sacrificed just for me & followed me to tamp .
, thank you nenek [:

, so the 5 of us went to the tamp popular .
, we took bus 69 & u noe us rite ?
, there will alwaes be pictures taken everywhere we go .
, hahah . LOL .
, so yeahhhh .

, before heading to the mall , we planned to have a drink since we were thirsty .
, denden , after relaxing , we went to the mall .
, was a bit fresh by then .

, after we went to the popular , we headed home .
, me , fidi & nat took 69 while elham & kila went to take their own respective bus .
, was already tired .
, nat alight at her bus stop .
, me & fidi talking all the way .
, thanx to fidi for teman-ing me to bedok inter .
, thank you fidi [:
, after that off we go on our separate ways .
, reached home , COMPUTERRR !!!!
, hahahah .
, currently watching tv .
, k la .
, thats all for todae ayee .
, i will sure update more tmrw due to some probs ]:

, byebye .
, takecare .
, goodnitex .

! GERLS ARE HUMANS TOO !

2010-01-22T03:28:00.000-08:00

, as usual , sorry for not updating .
, was busy with schools .
, so , it will be a long post perhaps .
, do read it ayeeeeee [:

, MONDAY ;
, had school as usual .
, wasnt much coz i went home straight after school .
, had some crap with fidi .

, TUESDAY ;
, shit !
, my name was called as i did not went for the SL meeting .
, damn siaaaa .
, he dont have to do that rite ?
, so yeahhh , had to suffer .
, the chairman said that we had to wear tie everyday ?
, WTH ???!!!
, if not , we will get it ?
, lame siaaa .
, no freedom at all siaaa .
, we are not their dogs what .
, who are they to rule me ?
, so , yeahhh , was fed up about that .
, but nvm .
, endure , endure , endure .
, everyting will end at april .
, fuhhhhhhhh ! lucky !
, denden , as usual , went home straight with fidi .
, had craps again .

, WEDNESDAY ;
, since fidi planned not to go school with me , msged choo & asked her wether wanna go school together ?
, met her at the usual place & walked off to the blk in front of the mamak shop .
, slack there with nenek , zizie & choo .
, gosh , had to wear tie ! [ SL ]
, denden , went in school , go toilet .
, after that went straight to the hall .
, got maths PAL siaaa .
, was a bit suffering .
, but have to do it still .
, finish school , as usual also , went home straight .

, THURSDAY ;
, went to school with naddddd coz the SL had to reach at 7.10 am .
, denden , had lessons as per normal .
, after school , called mummy & told her that i wanted to stay back for a while .
, cant be going home straight all the day rite ?
, mummy agreed [:
, so , had a talk on something with my loves once .
, relax k .
, dont worry , you are not wrong .
, GOD will surely protect you from the evil [:
, after all is done , went home with CHOOOOOOO [:
, followed her to 7/11 .
, walked back towards the bridge .
, we had a long talked .
, when i told her *something* , she suddenly started to sing this song ;
~ Cinta itu boleh diupamakan bagai makan sambal belachan .
Walau pedas , hingga mengalir air mata masih mahu dimakan jua .
Cinta boleh buat mcm goreng pisang ,
Sungguh enak bila mkn panas - panas bila ia sejuk ,
hilang enaknyaaa ~
, hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha .
, i was laughing like crazy until i felt as if i wanna BURST siaaaa !
, aiyoooo .
, wont forget what happened that day .
, was a memorable one siaaaaa !
, hmmmm .
, den headed home .

, FRIDAY ;
, went to school with naddd again .
, reach school 7 am .
, denden , met with nenek all .
, had lessons per normal .
, nenek brought for us 'mee goreng' .
, i told the rest to shout " THANK YOU NENEK " , hahahah . she was shy siaaa .
, D&T ???
, i was damn scared siaaaa .
, i had forgotten to bring my d&t file .
, aiyooooo . but nothing happen .
, finish school at 12.30 pm .
, went home straight & came back to school .
, coz i planned to do D&T in school with my frens .
, thanx to fidi for helping me to draw some sketches .
, so , had some craps with darls too .
, was fun of all .
, i love it .

, so , currently , blogging .
, tired argh .
, k la .
, good nitex !
, take care !

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

, as for now , this is my favourite song [:
, BYEBYE by MARIAH CAREY [:
, iloveyou [:

! WHAT A DAY !

2010-01-17T03:35:00.000-08:00

, i will post todae so that means next post will be on 23 January 2010 [:

, todae was nothing much .
, just sat at home .
, as usually my sunday would be .
, had done severals homewerk .
, this weekend was not a good one , i swear it wasnt .
, homewerk were tough .
, geog ? dont ever ask ?
, that was the most hardest .
, before doing homewerk , was chatting with NENEK at msn [:
, me & nenek were chatting bout something that is private .
, only both of us know it .

" Apologizing does not mean that you are wrong and the other person is right . It just means that you value your friendships more than ur ego . "

, that is what nenek tells me to remember .
, i do need someone to talk to rite ?
, so , i chose nenek coz she is more MATURE than me .
, she knows better of all this .
, so yarh .
, as per normal , if nenek & cucu yang degil nie da chat , mestilah cucu amek kesempatan untuk kacau nenek kan ???
, hahahahahahah .
, nenek cute larh .
, i likeeeeee [:
, hhahahahah .
, so yeahhhh .
, we ended everything around 1 ?
, hmmmm , around there larh .
, so , continue do homewerk .
, denden , something happened .
, not gonna elaborate .
, sleep ; woke up at 7.30 pm .
, currently blogging .
, wanna watch tv larh .
, until here first k people ?

, byebye !
, take care !
, goodnitex !

! WENT TO EAT WITH FRENS & BIRTHDAE PARTY !

2010-01-16T07:16:00.000-08:00

, as usual , sorry for not updating .

, todae was the fun of all ;
, i swear i love it !

, morning ;
, went to religious lesson but the tutor wasnt at home .
, so , the moment i reached home , called EFAHCHAN .
, we actually had planned to eat together at the prata shop near my house .
, denden , we planned to ask ZIZIE , KILA & NATASHA to tag along as it will be more merrier .
, after that , they fetch me at the CC bustop .
, we were like a gang > all of us did not tie our hair .
, rambut smuer rebang sakkk .
, hahahhaha . LOL .
, denden , nenek & zizie went to buy their food first , they bought rice .
, while me , efah & tasha ate roti prata .
, firstly , we had loads of conversations .
~ about generations ; islam/muslim ; parents ; families ~
, a lot sia .
, some of it were sad & some of it were funny .
, we laugh all we can .
, we sat there for like 1 hour plus ?
, yeahhh , around there .
, we were the very KECOH table out of the rest .
, we were the longest to sat there .
, denden , zizie & nenek were craving for soya bean .
, i brought them to the shop at the pasar there .
, funny siaa , got 2 chinese old man fighting & one of them called his gang . LOL .
, after that , got one sort of eurasian old man said sorry to efah as he had accidentally knock on efah's bag .
, i swear at that point of time , eafh muker blank gilerrrr .
, nenek was like " pandai sakkk english dier "
, so , nenek bought soya bean & zizie bought chin chow .
, sat there for about 30 mins & off we go on our separate ways .
, i went with zizie while nenek , efah & tasha went together .
, reached home , quickly changed & get ready for the birthdae party !

, afternoon ;
, went to pasir ris alone as mummy is still werking & she will go there only after werk .
, so , reached there & salamsalam my cuzzy all .
, talktalk with them & mummy reached !!!
, so happy siaa .
, den , help aunty with the preparations .
, the party started .
, got lots of game , songs , people laughing like crazy . wth ???!!!
, hahah .
, denden , the most funny part was when 5 mens were told to drink the orange juice from the baby bottle .
, &&&& my bro was one of them .
, i laugh like crazy siaa .
, an adult using a baby bottle to drink orange juice ?
, can you imagine ?
, BUTTTTT , bro winsss !!!!!
, hahah , funny sia . exactly like a baby .
, baby ganyut katerkan .
, hahah .
, sat there until 10.30 pm & uncle send us home .

, currently blogging .
, so tired .
, k la , until here first .
, byebye .
, take care .
, goodnitex !

! MY BLOG IS NOT DEAD !

2010-01-09T00:54:00.000-08:00

, sorry for not updating this week .
, i was kinda busy with SCHOOL & my own FEELINGS .

, SCHOOLS ?
, time past so fast when we are enjoying .
, it seems that it had been 4 years in ping yi secondary .
, so fast ? yeahhh . thats the fact .
, it was awkward to go to school on the first day as i was so nervous & keeps on asking my classmates wether we are really in sec 4 .
, i just cant believe it .
, ya , i am so stress about going to sec 4 .
, this is the year that everything shuts > holidays , slackings , outing .
, all are being closed for now .
, people might think that i am crazy , yes i am .
, coz , i am scared to let my families down .
, especially mummy .
, i am seriously aiming to go sec 5 .
, thats my future that i had to aim now .
, sec 5 , sec 5 , sec 5 !
, i was so scared to hear that most of my seniors cant make it to sec 5 .
, it was sad for them .
, hmmmm .
, as for now , i am already stress for D&T .
, lots of coursework to be done .
, if i am already stress for D&T , what about the other subjects ???
, ENGLISH , MATHS , C.SCIENCE , C.HUMANITIES & MALAY ???
, arghhhh . i can go crazy siaaa .
, i swear i am not ready for 'N' LEVEL !
, teachers had been saying that this year will be our tough year which determines where we go .
, SEC 5 ? ITE ?
, NO !
, i seriously dont want to go ITE !
, i dont want !
, trying to focus in class .
, buy those notes that are helpful for me .
, asking friends & teachers if i dont understand .
, and all i've got to do is > STUDY , PRAY & PERSEVERE all i can !
[ told mummy that i am not ready for 'N' LEVEL & she told me to study & focus . ]

, FEELINGS ?
, sometimes i cant focus to do my work is becoz of my feelings .
, i seriously want to get rid of this feelings just for this 8 months before 'N' LEVEL .
, with this feelings , it makes me weak .
, i alwaes pray to GOD to let out all my problems .
, as for now , i wont think anymore bout this feelings .
, i will keep it a secret to my ownself .
, not even my bestfriends , family members will noe it .
, it will just be between me & GOD .
, i will let GOD help me & see how HE will tell me to do about it .
, yeahhhh . i have to focus for 'N' LEVEL .
, thats all i have for this 8 months !

, all i have to re-assure now is 'N' LEVEL , 'N' LEVEL , 'N' LEVEL !
, thats what is in my mind .

, so , starting from now ;
, i will only update twice a week .
, which means only on saturday & sunday .
, dont ever think that my bloggy is dead aitess .
, it will not happen .
, so yeahh .

, will be updating more tomorrow as i will be having a birthday party .
, do read tmrw's post ayee .

, byebye .
, take care .
, sweet love ~

! LAME !

2010-01-02T03:26:00.000-08:00

dont act INNOCENT in front of me ;
i noe you too well ;
you are just wasting your time to get near my loves once ;
i will alwaes be beside them to show what your true colours are ;

! GO & DIE IDIOT !

2009-12-30T20:38:00.000-08:00

, sorry for not updating coz i have no mood to update .
, there is also nothing much to tell .
, sorry ayeee .

, just had a past at someone's bloggy .
, irritating sakkk .
, dont need to tell the whole world ar .
, BITCH !
, if you love someone , den be patience larh .
, idiot !
, you think he only got time for you is it .
, he also got family unlike you , no family .
, thats why you alwaes want him to see you everyday .
, excuse me !
, he is related to me , thats why i am damn angry with you .
, get it ????!!!!

, sorry for the post ^ there .
, hmmmmm .
, sadsad , both my brothers went thailand .
, boreddddd .
, the house is not noisy as how it should be .
, if not , the house will be full of sheeps talking , laughing & shouting .
, they will countdown at PATTAYA [:
, hope they enjoy ayeeee [:
, take care brothers !

, today ?
, went johor with neighbour .
, was searching for PUMAAAA baggy .
, too bad , there wasnt any .
, sad siaaa .
, no bag to go to school .
, hmmmmmmm .
, will be searching at VIVOCITY .
, that is the last place i can search .
, if not , die !
, use plastic bag to school .
, fidi's idea .
, hahahahah .
, LOL .
, i dont even dare siaaaa .
, hmmmmm .

, waaaaahhhhhh .
, cant wait for tmrw .
, FIRDIANA ASNAN is gonna overnite at my crib & we will countdown together for the first time !!!
, yeahhhh .
, i love it !

, k la .
, until here first .
, byebye .
, take care .
, goodnites !

! DIDNT REALISE THAT !

2009-12-27T04:59:00.000-08:00

, sorry for not updating ayee .
, i will start with today's story .

, i would like to say thank you very much to my one only bestfriend for accompanying me today .
, she had to wake early in the morning just to follow me [:
, as today i have to go to the CC that is in front of my house to collect free school books voucher .
, the guest of honour was DR MUHD FAISHAL IBRAHIM .
, the students are to wear school uniform & school shoes .
, reached there at 11.30 am ;
, waited for the guest of honour .
, he talktalk den give the voucher .
, everything ends at 12.50 pm .
, me & fidi were damn hungry so decided to eat at the usual place .
, after eating , went under my block & started our caryness again .
, but too bad ;
, coz today wont be fun like how it usually be .
, coz we can only spent time ~ not even 20 min together .
, as i had to go & visit grandad .
, sorry fidi .
, on tuesday we spent time together again k [:
reached hone at 2.15 pm .
, when i wanted to get ready , i was suddenly sleepy sakkkk .
, called mummy & told her that i wont be following her .
, sorry mummy ]:
, denden , went to sleep .
, LOLLLLLLLLL .
, woke up around 6.30 pm .
, watched tv & play comp .
, crap with my family about the show on tv .
, funny seyyyyy .
, k la .
, until here first k .
, byebye .
, take care .
, good nitex !

, i was shocked to read my friends bloggy & saw that my name was there .
, they wrote my name to MOTIVATE me & give me the strength to move on .
, thank you so much ayee .
, you noe who you are .

! SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING !

2009-12-24T19:29:00.000-08:00

, sorry for not updating yesterday .

WEDNESDAY ;

, had fun with bro & family to the zoo !
, sorry , no picyures coz all of it is in my sis-in-law camera .
, just a word for that day , BLASTTTTT !

THURSDAY ;

, was at home all the way .
, wanted to go out with mummy , but , was so lazy though .
, ouh ya ! wanted to go out with fidi play bowling .
, but , it was cancel too .
, sorry fidi for disappointing youu .
, will plan it another day k ?
, so yeahh . , watch tv & play comp all the way .
, at night , aunty & uncle came .
, crap with them .
, the time was 12 am & they went home .
, so yeahh .
, until here first k .
, byebye .
, take care .
, good nitex !

, tomorrow CHRISTMAS .
, wanna give mummy a surprise !
, i wanna treat her SWENSEN !!!
, she dont noe yet .
, weeeeeeee .
, hope she love it !
, i love mummy !

! TWO DAYS WITH FIDI !

2009-12-22T16:30:00.000-08:00

, as you guys can see .
, i did not update yesterday coz i was tired .
, for these 2 days , i had spent time with my beloved bestfriend ~ FIDISTARLIGHT [:
, it has been a long time since we met .

, for the first day ;
, met under my block .
, brought along the skate as fidi wanted to .
, she scolded me for not telling her .
, haha , its ok .
, slack , slack .
, denden , send the skate back to my house & went to buy snacks to eat .
, after buying , went back to the place that we were & talktalktalk .
, i am glad that fidi could hear my probs & she gave me advices .
, yeahhhhh .
, denden , around 3 pm , sent her at the bus stop ;
, waited for the bus & off i go home .
, thanx ayee fidi for the day .

, the second day ;
, met her at the nearby prata shop around 11 am as she wanted to survey the salon shop .
, one of the shop perming is cheaper so she planned to perm her hair at that moment .
, waited for her .
, it wasnt long .
, about 1 hour ???
, denden , when she finished , it was a bit funny coz she looks like a JUDGE .
, hahahahah . LOL .
, but slowly the curl became bigger & bigger & nicerrrr !
, after that , went to eat at the prata shop , fidi treat me .
, thank you bestie [:
, we talktalk .
, went under my block as i was waiting for my 1st bro to come .
, while waiting ;
, aper lagi , giler kiter org pon kluar .
, took lots of photos . [ in fb ]
, it was raining & we were shivering in cold .
, bro came . gave him something .
, den fidi followed me up to my house as i wanted to change my clothes .
, going to my aunty shop at ang mo kio .
, appreciate it alot coz fidi waited for me .
, ouh ya , fidi was forcing me to upload the pics that we took in fb .
, due to my bestie , i do it .
, denden , around 3 pm , went out from my house .
, fidi sent me till bedok inter at bus 25 .
, luckily the bus came so i board the bus while fidi went home .

, reached ang mo kio .
, saw aunty all .
, den , we talktalk .
, at 7 plus , we went home .
, reached home at 8.30 pm .
, k larh .
, tired .
, byebye .
, take care .
, good nitex !

, thanx ayee fidi for all the laughter & jokes [:
, i appreciate it alot [: , i hope you enjoy too ayee [:

! IT REALLY HURTS !

2009-12-21T04:09:00.000-08:00

, i swear it really hurts .
, i cant take it alone .
, this problem is so pain for me .

, this problem is a shit by entering in my life .
, all ive got to say is ;
GOD , take me away from this world ...

, as what fidi told me ,
" happy . Makesure u dun fake tat happy . Somehow , from the outside , your happy but people wont noe what u feel exactly . Rite ?

, to my fellow friends ;
, sorry if i cant follow you guys for any events .
, i seriously need to be alone .
, thats all .

, being alone is the best of all

! NOTHING MUCH !

2009-12-20T18:06:00.000-08:00

, sorry for not updating well .
, yeahhh , i have no stories to tell .
, today , gonna tell youu guyss what happen [:

, today , me & nenek [ kila ] ,
had been on9 & chatting with each other from 1 plus to nearly 8 pm .
, i told her my probs .
, about my family probs & about my feelings of love .
, she gave me a bit of advices coz she is not used to give advices at msn .
, so , she planned to meet me this wednesday .
, this is the phrase that she keeps on reminding me ~
" you can avoid him but you cannot avoid your feelings towards him "
, this phrase really make me weak .
, gosh .

, denden , 1st bro called & asked wether i am free on wednesday ???
, den i say that i wanna meet my friend [ kila ] ;
, he say , follow him & his family go ZOO ?
, so i was like , hmmmm , ok larh .
, told kila that i will meet her after i went to the zoo .
, hope she is still in bedok [:

, back to the story ;
, kila was showing me the blogskins .
, i thought it was for her den suddenly she told me to give my password & email .
, LOLLLL .
, i told her why never tell me earlier .
, aiiyyyaaaaaaa .
, she ahh . alwaes like that .
, after everything is done , i keep on saying thank you to her .
, she scolded me & say not to say thank you anymore .
, of course larh .
, she had to redo all the links .
, poor nenek .
, i owe u alot !
, after that , she went to find blogskins for her bloggy also .
, we end the chat nearly 8 pm .
, she gtg .

, i also off9 & watched tv .
, all the way watching .
, bro came home , talktalk & off i go to sleep [:
, good nite .
, byebye .
, take care .

, i have lots of events coming ;

> tuesday/22th dec : ben invites to watch movie ;

> wednesday/23th dec : go zoo with bro & family ;

> thursday/24th dec : fidi invites to e-hub , downtown ;

> saturday/26th dec : cuzzy birthdae party ;

> sunday/27th dec : go cc to collect the school free books ; [ i really need someone to follow me ]

> tuesday/29the dec : go buy school books etc. ; [ i really need someone to follow me ]

, this is all i have for this week ;

! STRESSSSSSSSSSS !

2009-12-19T16:51:00.000-08:00

, gosh , i am so stress bout 3 things rite now .

~ my future ?
~ my school ?
~ my family ?

~ my future > until when am i gonna be like this ? with the same behaviour & attitude ?

~ my school > i swear i am not prepared to take N LEVEL next year . i am not even ready to go sec 4 . why cant i concentrate to really , really study ?

~ my family > gosh ! the worst thing . one problem by one problem .
[ i swear that i am not ready . i am just a teenager . i dont understand anything at that point of time . i will see how you guys can . ]

, see , problems are all surrounding me .
, how am i gonna solve all this alone ?
, didnt they think bout my future ?
, i am so stress that i cant concentrate any single thing .
, my friends had been asking me to go out , but i just couldnt .
, all the nite before i went to sleep , there WILL alwaes be tears coming out from my eyes .
, but they dont noe .
, coz they thought that i am happy with watever they did to me .
, i will alwaes be in the wrong .
, they will alwaes be the correct one .

, when i think back , " GOD , PLEASE TAKE MY LIFE COZ I CANT BEAR TO BE IN THIS SITUATION ANYMORE . I AM TIRED . PLEASE GOD , I AM BEGGING YOU "
, i swear , this is hat i say before going to sleep .
, i am not kidding .

! DIMAS SETO !

2009-12-17T18:13:00.000-08:00

, saw the picture ^ there ?
, yeahhhh .
, he is DIMAS SETO [:
, a Indonesian artist .
, just to say , i love him .
, he is so cute .
, should look at him when he is acting .
, wowwwwwww .
, just to let you guys noe , i am actually preferred with the INDONESIA shows , dramas & more .
, i love himmmmmm [:

! I NEED YOUU BACK !

2009-12-16T21:47:00.000-08:00

, i had been thinking for the past few days .
, it keeps on bothering me .
, should i ?
, should not i ?
, but , what will the answer be ?
, will i still get the answer that used to be ?
, ______ will hate me for sure .
, i noe ___ attitude .
, __ wont forgive me .
, gosh , i really need ___ back .
, i am nothing without ______ .
, all i got to do is pray to GOD & let GOD lead the way .

, semoga terbuka hatimu untukku .
, ku tak akan ulangi kesalahan ku .
, itulah janjiku padamu .
, janjiku .

2009-12-15T22:48:00.000-08:00

Jangan simpan kata-kata cinta pada orang yang tersayang sehingga dia meninggal dunia lantaran akhirnya kamu terpaksa catatkan kata-kata cinta itu pada pusaranya. Sebaliknya ucapkan kata-kata cinta yang tersimpan dibenakmu itu sekarang selagi ada hayatnya.

Cintailah seseorang itu atas dasar siapa dia sekarang dan bukan siapa dia sebelumnya. Kisah silam tidak perlu diungkit lagi, kiranya kamu benar-benar mencintainya setulus hati.

Kadangkala kamu tidak menghargai orang yang mencintai kamu sepenuh hati, sehingga kamu kehilangannya. Pada saat itu, tiada guna penyesalan karena perginya tanpa berkata lagi.

Hal yang menyedihkan dalam hidup adalah ketika kamu bertemu seseorang yang sangat berarti bagimu, hanya untuk menemukan bahwa pada akhirnya menjadi tidak berarti dan kamu harus membiarkannya pergi.

Hawa diciptakan dari rusuk Adam, bukan dari kepala untuk dijunjung, bukan dari kaki untuk dijadikan alas, melainkan dari sisinya untuk dijadikan teman hidup, dekat dihati untuk dicintai...

Jika kamu memancing ikan, setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail, hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu, janganlah sesekali kamu lepaskan ia semula ke dalam air begitu saja…. Karena ia akan sakit oleh karena bisanya ketajaman mata kailmu dan mungkin ia akan menderita selagi ia masih hidup... Begitulah juga setelah kamu memberi banyak pengharapan kepada seseorang, setelah ia mulai menyayangimu hendaklah kamu menjaga hatinya, janganlah sesekali kamu meninggalkannya begitu saja… Karena ia akan terluka oleh kenangan bersamamu, dan mungkin tidak dapat melupakan segalanya selagi dia mengingatimu…

Cinta akan menyakitkan ketika kamu berpisah dengan seseorang, lebih menyakitkan apabila kamu dilupakan oleh kekasihmu, tapi cinta akan lebih menyakitkan lagi apabila seseorang yang kamu sayangi tidak tahu apa yang sesungguhnya kamu rasakan.

, just to say that , i am nothing without youu .
, i really hope we can start anew .

! HOLIDAYYYYYY WAS A BLASTTTTT !

2009-12-15T18:26:00.000-08:00

actually this PE shirt is for sleeping .
but i just used it for a while since we were at my neighbour's son place
at the resort above the sea water .
their hotel 5 STAR !!!

, heyyy peeps !
, the holiday was a blasttt !
, i love it .
, JOHOR , MUAR , MALACCA , PORT DICKSON ~
, i love it siaaa !
, ouh ya , not forgetting the cows walking on the street ?
, weird rite ?
, all the cars were like horn their car as they needed space to drive .
, lastly , the BUNGALOW !!!!!
, mummy , i wanna own a bungalowwwwwwwww !!!!!
, the pics were tell k .
, most of the pics in facebook .
, i lazy to upload in bloggy [:
, byebye .

! OFF I GO !

2009-12-11T06:21:00.000-08:00

, i am left with bout 10 hours & will be out from my house .
, gonna sleep early today coz tmrw is gonna be tiring day .
, will be back on tuesday .
, gonna miss someone [:
, k larh .
, take care people .
, will take lots of pics there & post at my bloggy once i am back okaaay [:
, byebye .

, PORTDICKSON , here i comeee [:
, tatatititutu !

! GOING HOLIDAY TOMORROW !

2009-12-10T22:06:00.001-08:00

, sorry for not updating [:
, there wasnt much to tell about , thats why i did not update .

, todae ?
, as usual , went to see grandpa with mummy .
, denden , walked all the way to bedok inter.
, took cash out from the POSB & change to ringgit money .
, reached home , mummy gave me the malaysia money coz i used my own to change .
, 2nd bro didnt believe that i had changed $300 from my own savings ?
, of course larh . i keep the money for my holidaes so that i could spent on the things i want .

, weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee [:
, cant wait .
, can you imagine ? ~ 730RM in your hand rite now ???
, gosh , i seriously cant wait .

, den , bro was talking bout his holiday .
, mummy told him not to go far for holidae next year as they will be bringing me to my favourite country after 'O' LEVEL [:
, hopefully i pass !
, will pray hard for that .
, but for now , concentrate for 'N' LEVEL first la .
, hmmmmmm .
, k larh .
, until here first k .
, i will surely update tmrw before i go off on saturday in the dawn !
, byebye .
, take care .
[:

! NOT A DEAD BLOGGY !

2009-12-08T17:25:00.000-08:00

, yeahhh . dont ever think that my bloggy is dead .
, now , it will be a long post [:

TUESDAY ;

, had promised fidi that today we will be playing the skateboard that my bro owns . the skateboard was from long , long ago . hehe . but she still insists to borrow it . so planned to meet her at 11.30 am but when i called mummy , she said go & asked fidi to follow you to see grandpa . also to take something from there . straight away called fidi & asked if she could follow me ? she said okaay can . so , met her at inter [ she was shocked to see me as i had rebond my hair ] , took 38 & off we go . visit grandpa & he asked fidi wether she go school & asked whether she had eaten . see , grandpa can talk to people . i love grandpa :] after that , we planned to go & eat at the chicken rice stall . denden , we took a glance in mall tamp 1 & headed home . was at home all the way after that .

MONDAY ;

, went to play soccer at my house there . of course , with fidi . took videos , pictures all . denden , went back to my house as wanted to change my clothes . after that , fetch mardy at my bus stop . continue to play at the street soccer . suddenly , the rain comes . sat under the block . talktalktalk . we crap a lot siaa . some sad story , some funny jokes . hehe . we were feeling so hungry so we planned to eat at the seafood restaurant near my house also . ate chicken rice . around 3 plus , i sent both of them to the bus stop & i headed home . waited for mummy . actually wanted to visit grandpa but me & mummy sleep . LOL . when i woke up , mummy said go & get ready as she will sent me to the shop for rebonding :] it was like for 3 hours i sat there . reached home , bro tease me . hehe . denden , sleep . coz so tired already at the salon for 3 hours siaa . i love it !

SUNDAY ;

went to my cuzzy's birthday party . was so fun . the kids were all like gathering near the cake once it is placedd on the table . some even touch the cake . omg ! the cake was damn nice . i love it . talk with my cuzzies . have fun disturbing them . after i had enjoy , mummy planned to go home . took 87 & headed back home . by the time we reached home , the time was late . so , i decided to sleep as i was very tired . byebye .

, i am so happy coz this saturday - tuesday i wont be in Singapore .
, going HOLIDAYYYY !!!!!
[:

! AQIL'S BIRTHDAE PARTY !

2009-12-05T17:41:00.000-08:00

, todaee was a BOMBASTIC !

, firstly ~
, woke up at 6.50 am , bath , eat & off i go .
, went to meet fidi under her block at 7.45 am .
, took bus 168 & headed to Tampines Safra .
, i got SOCCER FRIENDLY MATCH [:
, at last seyy .
, after all the match , we got MONEY !
, the soccer money .
, hooooorrrrraaaaayyyyyyy [:
, denden , bath & headed home .
, reached home , was so tired .

, secondly ~
, just reached home & mummy told me to get ready coz have to go to the wedding invitations under my block .
, HUHH ?!
, tired siaaa !
, but nvm , for mummy's sake .
, so , since i bath already after my match , i decided to just change my clothes .
, went under my block , eat , drink & suddenly saw one of the player that was in my team just now .
, preety siaaa her !
, denden , went home .

, thirdly ~
, mummy told me to call 1st bro & asked bout something .
, denden , bro told me to wear RED & BLACK ?
, me & mummy wanted t o go out already & bro told me that coz i told hime that i was wearing blue .
, den he said " tukar , tukar , tukar " [ change , change , change ]
, ok larh. for their sake can larh .
, so , reached at the birthdae party , was very enjoyable .
, my nephew's cake is so cool .
, mickey mouse cake .
, cute seyyy .
, all i had to say for the birthdae party is , BLASTTT !
, very wonderful [:
, i dont noe what to buy for my nephew , so i just gave him money .
, that moey is sincere from my heart for him [:
, i love youu Syed Aqil Rifqi !

k larh . thats all for todae k .
, sorry if there is no pics .
, byebye .
, take care .
, good nitex .
[:

! LIFE ? !

2009-12-03T05:48:00.000-08:00

, life ? what is life ?
, i seriously find that my life is sometimes good , & sometimes bad .
, but i wonder why an outsider can understand my problems instead of my own family members ?
, sometimes it is very weird to think bout that .
, as for this holidays , i can say that my life is bad .
, seriously . i cant lie to myself .
, wanna noe why ???

~ people only find me when they have no one to be with .
, the most i hate is this ;
~ when people are not fulfilling their promises .

, that is the part i hate most .
, they DARE to promise but they are COWARD when they are told to fulfil the promise .
, sometimes , i am like that too .
, but honestly , i did not promise things that i really cant do .
, i noe that human in this world are not perfect .
, if youu noe that , WHY MUST YOU PROMISE THINGS THAT YOU CANT FULFIL ?

, CB larh !
, fed up siaa .
, was hoping it could be fun & we can enjoy together as i thought you guys were fulfil your promises , but it seems that it is so difficult for me to trust all you anymore .
, guess what ?
, i wont trust any of youu !
, i am sorry , but youu guys did it so many times & i think that there is no need to trust you guys anymore .

, firstly , i would like to say THANK YOU very much to PUTRI NUR AMIRAH for this pic .
, she is my lovely , sweety & cutipie cuzzy [:
, i love her so much .
, she was the one who make for me tis pic .
, nice rite ?
, of course larh [:
, i was shocked when she gave me tis pic .
, ouhh yeahh !
, she is wearing my favourite cartoon character shirt !!!!!
, ELMOOOOOO !
, thank you dear .
, hope to meet you soon k !

, k larh .
, short post for today k !
, good nite !
, take care !
[:

! DOWNTOWN EAST !

2009-12-02T17:51:00.000-08:00

, woke up around 9 again .
, played comp .
, bath .
, get ready & at 3 , go off from house .
, went to inter & took bus 38 to bedok south [ lions home ] .
, met mummy at the gate of the home as we are gonna visit grandpa .
, poor grandpa .
, he cant do anything .
, all he do is lying down ]:
, i hope u will really get well soon & be like last time k grandpa ?
, after that , me & mummy waled to the inter .
, went to the bank ~ go shing song ~ meet fidi [:
, we actually waited for kila , but since she is at tampines , we told her to wait there for bus 17 .
, me & fidi took 17 from inter , & met kila on the bus from where she was .
, where aree we goingg ?
, DOWNTOWN [:
, reached there , went to eat .
, after eating , wanted to go arcade but , we changed the plan & headed to Whitesand .
, i searched for things that have the cartoon character of DORA THE EXPLORER [:
, for my niece as her birthdae is coming !
, denden , there wasnt any of the cartoon .
, kila planned to go tampines to check at the TOY-r-US .
, bought one of it .
, den go to mac to slack for a while .
, i bought ice cream sundae !
, nenek was craving for porridge coz she is sick ]:
, poor nenek . get well soon ayee [:
, as it was reaching 9 pm soon , me & fidi headed home while nenek waited for her bro .
, me & fidi took mrt & stop at bedok .
, i took 225 , fidi took 14 & off we go .
, reached home at 9.27 pm [:
, was so tired , went to sleep .
, take care .
, byebye .
, good nitex !
[:

! ELMO !

2009-12-01T05:12:00.000-08:00

, must be wondering why i upload the pic up there ?
, just to share with you guys , my favourite cartoon character is ELMOOOO [:
, cute rite ? i noe .... heheheh .
, yeahh , i love ELMO a lot !

, todae ?
, woke up around 9 plus .
, played comp .
, was too hungry , decided to text fidi & asked her wether she is free to teman me go & eat at the usual place [:
, den she called .
, planned to meet around 11.30 ?
, quickly do the chores , called mummy & off i go to have a bath .
, meet her , ate roti prata as usual .
, with a glass of water ~ honeydew [:
, atedrinktalk .
, denden , went to buy for the things that fidi was looking for .
, after that , went to shing song to buy tit-bits .
, sent fidi at the bus stop near my house & off i go when the bus came .
, reached home , sleep .
, no life siaa .
, boreddd ]:
, denden , mummy called & told me to wait for her at bedok inter .
, change my clothes & meet 2nd bro at inter too .
, went to eat at KFC [:
, saw SARABANGA !
, LOLLLLL .
, after that , we went to the M1 shop due to some reasons .
, den , went to watson to buy the dye for my hair .
, ~ medium brown ! [:
, cant wait !
, had a walked at the sports link to check the shoes & saw my cuzzy !
, after tired of walking , went home .
, reached home , talktalk with family .
, currently blogging .
, k la .
, byebye .
, take care .
, good nitex !
[:

! NOTHING ]: !

2009-11-30T18:05:00.000-08:00

, todae ?
, quite boreddd ]:
, woke around 11 plus as i slept late the day before .
, watched tv [:
, bath [:
, play comp [:
, denden , the time was nearly 3 pm .
, decided to call mummy & asked her wether we can go eat at the seafood restaurant just in front of my house .
, coz , i had been craving for fried kway teow [:
, mummy said okaaay [:
, meet her at the shop with one of her bestfriend & even a mother to me .
, eateateat ; drinkdrinkdrink ; talktalktalk .
, after everything is done , headed back home .
, at home , watched tv with mummy [:

, den 2nd bro came home .
, bro gives mummy money for her used .
, wooowwwwwwww !
, lots of $50 notes .
, what if that loads of money is in my hand now ???
, i will like jumping in the house like a crazy monkey get its food ?
, LOLLLLLL [:
, 2nd bro is very lucky .
, he gets the money due to his own effort [:

, okaaay back to the story .
, so , played comp after watched tv .
, bro had a conversation with mummy .
, bro wants to go INDIA with his friends on February 2010 ?
, hmmmm . NOT FAIR !
, nvm . i will try to be like him .
, will save my own money k !

denden , my neighbour's grandson came again .
, sowie , this time i never take his pic coz he is sending his aunty to the airport .
, at nite , watched ~ MacamMacamAznil !!!
, the best show ever .
, laugh all the siaaa [:
, denden watched ~ SakaratulMaut !
, this show is the most scary show ever .
, brrrrrrr ]:

, was feeling sleepy .
, at 11.45 pm went to sleep [:
, byebye !
, take care !
, goodnitex !
[:

! I AM TIRED !

2009-11-29T05:25:00.000-08:00

, todae ?
, nothing much happen .
, was at home all the way .
, no life siaaa !
, its ok coz the day before , i had enjoy a lot .
, so yeahhh .
, today rest larh .
, was with bro , talking .
, in the afternoon ;
, something happen ?
, sorry , cant elaborate bout that .
, coz its my family privacy .
, i hope the problems will be solve as soon as possible .
, please GOD .
, denden , wanted to go Toa Payoh ~ [ pasar malam ]
, tapi tak menjadi .
, kesian ehk .
, nvm den . so , watched tv .
, suddenly , my neighbours grandson came .
, played with him
, entertain him .
, he is very cute yknowww !
, he alwaes makes me laugh .
, hmmmm .
, k larh .
, i think thats all for today ayeee .
, not in a good mood larh .

, gosh , i am tired of all this .
, please larh people , dont make use of the person who are closed with you .
, you will feel hurt if people revenge back on you .
, be fair with your love ones .
, do noe how to spent time with people around you .
, i swear , it really hurts .
, if you guys really wanna noe how i feel , den asked me myself .
, i will cry telling you guys my story .
, hmmmm .
, yeahh , lots of my friends are having probs too ]:
, problems are now surrounding my mind for these mean time .
, i dun noe why ?
, it keeps on moving in & out .
, all i've got to do is to believe in myself & be patience to let the matter move on smoothly without hurting anyone & even myself .
, only GOD knows how i am trying not to hurt my love ones .
, but , i cant go through all this alone .
, i need someone to be with me .

! HAD A MEMORIABLE FAMILY GATHERING !

2009-11-28T18:28:00.000-08:00

, sorry for not updating .
, i was having a memorable family gathering !
, it was damn fun as we did not have much gathering for a long time !
, it was HARI RAYA HAJI & my family decided to overnite at the changi beach !
, it includes the barbeque ! yumyum [:
, all the kids were enjoying .
, pictures were taken . [ including aunties & uncles ]
, seriously , i wont forget this outing !
, so , the pictures will do the talking for everything that had happen k !

, more pics in facebook [:

! CLASS BBQ !

2009-11-26T20:22:00.000-08:00

26 - 11 - 2009 ~ WAS A BLASTTT !
312 CLASS BARBEQUE !
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, more pics at facebook [:

! CANT WAIT FOR THE CLASS BBQ !

2009-11-25T06:06:00.001-08:00

, hello peeps !

, firstly ;
' grandad is discharged from hospital '
, i am so happy that grandad is able to go home .
, so , just now , mummy , 2nd bro & me went to fetch grandad .
, sent grandad at the lions home .
, was sad to leave grandad actually coz he was asking us where we are going ?
, hmmm ]:

, after that , mummy called grandparent to asked them out to simpang bedok .
, meet them at tampines & off we go hopping on granduncle's lorry .
, we ate , drink & talk a lot .
, laughing like crazy .
, after all that , we planned to go home as the time was late .

, reached home ~ blogging , facebook-ing & msg-ing choo !
, was a bit tired .
, cant wait for tmrw [:

, gosh , tmrw is 312 class barbeque [:
, i cant wait to meet all my friends & i will surely hug them as hard as i could as the remembrance of our UNITY [:
, rock on 312 [:

, you will only find me when u have no one to be with .
, i am sorry , but i just cant forget that you had done all this to me .
, i will alwaes remember it .
, i will see when you will start to find me .

! ARGHHHH !

2009-11-22T17:26:00.000-08:00

, todae ?

, woke up around 9 am .
, played comp den suddenly 2nd bro came back & bought for me the charkuey ?
, thanks ayee bro [:
, talktalk to him while watching tv .
, after that , clean the whole house coz if i clean it , mummy will let me go cinema with my friends on tuesday & plus , she will treat me for my ticket .
, soon , the whole house was cleaned .
, waited for the time to approach 2 pm .
, got ready all my stuffs , around 3 pm , went out from the house & off i go to the hospital .

, reached hospital as per normal ~ checked in & take pass .
, but, for todae , we cant get the pass yet coz the visiting time is 5 pm .
, me & mummy went to eat since we have 1 hour .
, we took our own sweet time den went to take the pass & headed up to the ward .
, me & mummy were shocked when we saw that the tube in garndad's nose had been pulled off .
, it means that grandad will eat through his mouth starting from todae !
, hooorrraaayyyyy [:
, sat there , talked to grandad den , uncle called & said that he need the pass to go up .
, so , mummy took him & they went to the foodcourt first as uncle is hungry .
, left me & grandad .
, ouh ya !
, 4 police was in the ward & they are juz in front of grandad's bed .
, coz , the patient is from the prison , thats why the police was there .
, as it was time for grandad to eat his medicine , the nurse wanted to feed him but he wanted to box the nurse .
, coz the medicine is so bitter & usually grandad eat using the tube feed .
, so , uncle & mummy persuade him to eat the medicine & off he went to sleep .
, around 8 plus went home .
, reached home around 9 ?

, k larh , until here first k .
, byebye !
, take care !

, i still dont noe why it is so difficult for you to understand ]:

! DONT TRY TO RUIN MY FAMILY !

2009-11-21T06:12:00.000-08:00

, just wanna let you noe that you wont be able to RUIN my family , GET IT ?!
, you are just a big shit in our family & i dont give a damn on you !
, you dare to make family suffer , you will get it from me .

, ok , so todae ?
, went to religious class , but the tutor wasnt at home .
, den , around 2 plus , went to hospital .
, i have a good news for myself .

, GRANDAD IS GETTING WELL [:
, i am so proud of him .
, at last , he can eat as per normal .
, but , it takes time as he had just get well .
, so , yeahhh . have to be patience .
, grandad , i promise that when you get well already , i will treat you k [:
, i promise [:

, denden , cuzzy & bro fetch us at the taxi stand as we will be heading to my another cuzzy house for birthday party .
, ate , drink , play .
, around 10 pm went home .
, reached home around 10 plus .
, now , blogging & msging benny .
, not in a good mood todayy !
, byebye !
, take care !

, i had never felt that u had betrayed me . dont worry k .

! WENT TO LOOK FOR JOB !

2009-11-20T07:13:00.000-08:00

, gosh , todae is the most tiring day .
, went to look for job .
, but too bad , everywhere i go , the interview is FULL .
, wth ?! & they want people who are 16 years old .
, okaayyy . thats so LAME .

, so , firstly , went to the airport with NUR RIZAFIRAH '
,den , headed to tamp .
, we meet with NOOR FIRDIANA .
, a while later , firah went off with her sister , i went off with fidi .
, took mrt , den 225 .
, reached home around 4 plus ?
, denden , aunty called to ask wether i will be following her to JOHOR or not .
, i cried . i was confused . i dont noe wether to go or not .

~ if YES , i am scared anything happen to grandad .
~ if NO , this is the only time i can enjoy my holiday as i am not going anywhere .

, but , i decided to sacrifice for grandad ! [:
, so , i was crying like ;
, i even dont noe why .
, mummy was shocked & she called mu aunty asking her what had happen ?
, i shouted at mummy & told her nothing happen .
, gosh , i was really bad .
, i was so confused .

, anyway , all of it is over .
, so yeah .
, wanna sleep .
, good nitex !
, take care !

Eren – Takkan Pisah

sayang aku ingin berbicara kepadamu
tentang apa yang tengah aku rasakan
ada apa, ada apa katakanlah semuanya
ku kan dengarkan duhai cintaku

bila nanti orang tuamu meridhoi dengan
apa yang ku rasakan padamu
semua orang tua ingin yang terbaik untuk anaknya
begitu pun orang tuaku

kau takkan tinggalkanku
takkan pernah, sayangku
janjimu janjiku untukmu

reff:
takkan ada yang pisahkan kita
sekali pun kau telah tiada
akan ku pastikan
ku kan memeluk menciummu di surga

jangan kau pergi tinggalkan aku
bawa aku ke mana kau mau
janji ku padamu
jiwa dan ragaku mati pun ku mau

repeat reff

! WILD WILD WET !

2009-11-18T03:25:00.000-08:00

, walauu ehh !
, today was the BEST of all siaa !
, i hope i wont be able to forget this memories in my heart ayee [:

, todae ?
, firstly , woke up at 8 am ?
, so early siaa . was supposed to wake up at 9.30 am .
, hmmm . nvm den . after that , play comp for a while .
, around 9 plus , start to pack my things to go swimming [:
, suddenly , i didnt notice that the time was like 10 ?
, i havent bathe ? do the chores ?
, gosh , have to hurry coz i will be meeting fidi at 11 ?
, so , after getting all my stuffs packed , do the chores for a while .
, denden , get ready the clothes i wanted to wear , & off i go to bathe .
, it was all ready by 10.40 am .
, msged fidi & asked her where she is as i am ready .
, den , few minutes later , fetch her at the CC bustop .
, went to the shop that takes photos for passport / nric .
, after fidi took the photo , i decided to eat as it was still early .
, suddenly , do u noe who we saw ???
, NENEKKKK ( kila ) !!! LOLLL
, cool siaa . den , her mum was also there .
, me & fidi sat at the same table as them .
, eat prata , talk2 to nenek & her mum [:
, i swear i like her mum siaa !
, very understanding ! love it !

ok , back to the story .

, den 4 of us took 225 together .
, reached bedok inter , nenek & her mum walked towards the outside of inter as me & fidi went to line up at bus number 17 .
, 1 minute like that , the bus came . lucky siaa .
, reached WILD WILD WET , the counter is not open yet .
, it starts at 1 pm . quite lots of people were waiting outside to enter .
, when the counter is open , me & fidi went to the toilet first & change .
, put our stuffs in the locker .
, OFF WE GO !!!
, we went to most of all the places there .
, ouh ya ! we had new friends . LOL . seriously .
, & not forgetting , MY FIRST EXPERIENCE TAKE THE ULAR-LAR SLIDE !
, gosh , it was a BLASTT !
, thanks to fidi for giving the chance & confidence to ride it .
, hehehehehehehehheehehehehheehhhheheheh [:
, after that , it was raining & fidi cannot be under the rain .
, so we planned to take our shower as we were there for almost 4 HOURS ?
, can you imagine . makin gelap sakk akuu !
, k , nvm . den , bro called telling me that , grandad was admitted in hospital , again ?????
, omg ! grandad , please get well soon . please !
, so , me & fidi headed to changi hospital .
, bro was waiting for us at the nearby block .
, reached the A&E , bro treat me & fidi as i complained that i was hungry .
, THANX BRO !
, & you noe whatt ?
, while eating the nasi lemak , fidi's chicken , fly off .
, hahahahahahhhahahhaaahahahahhhahahahahahahhah !
, LOLLLL . funny siaa . mummy & bro was teasing her .
, cute sakk fidi [:
, denden , i told mummy that i go home first as i was very tired , dens he say ok .
, mummy say she will also come home early .
, me & fidi took bus number 9 , reached bedok inter , bus 225 came & off i go .
, reached home , bro was sleeping while the tv is on ? LOL .
, so , watched tv & blogging ~ updating .
, hmmm . todayy was really AWESOME !

, i seriously wanna thank fidi for the grateful outing . thanx for making me happy . i really hope you had fun although it wasnt much . this memories will alwaes be kept in my heart . thanx for all the laughter aitess ! love you the most besties !

, photos is with fidi [:

! MISS HER !

2009-11-17T00:49:00.000-08:00

, sowie for not updating as there is no story to share about .

, so , todae ? hmmm .
, woke up around 10 plus in the morning as i slept late last nite .
, den , around 12 plus , fidi called me & asked wether i can follow her go tamp .
, called mummy & get ready .
, told bro to sent me & fidi at tamp & he say ok .
, fetch fidi at her block & off we go .
, reached tamp , sioll arr .
, bnyk mat-rep . ~ budak ITE ~
, hmm . den go eat first coz both of us are hungry .
, after that , went to CS & headed to POPEYE .
, when everything is settled , followed fidi to meet someone .
, they was late so i told fidi i wanted to go home coz i dont want to take the advantage of going home late although mummy allows [:
, took 69 .
, reached bedok inter , took 225 .
, reached home , nobody was around .
, dont bother to find out where there are ;
, so , started to face the comp .

, ouh ya !
, tmrw is gonna be damn fun siaa !
, DEVIL & STARLIGHT is gonna go to WILD WILD WET !
, fidi , kiter enjoy k !
, cant wait siaa ! wooohoooo [:
, gonna take lots of pics !

, hmmm . i miss my BESTFRIEND badly .
, NUR HAZLINDA BINTE JAMAL .
, we are still strong for 11 YEARS !
, miss her siaa .
, she is now at hougang as her family rent their house .
, august 2010 den she will be back .
, so long siaa !
, ]:

! WAS A BLAST !

2009-11-15T17:47:00.000-08:00

, todae was a BLAST !
, firstly , at 2 pm ,
, meet FIDI at bedok inter ;
, den , we headed to BUGIS coz fidi wanted to buy a belt ;
, we slack there ~ drink STARBUCK .
, was laughing , talking & blaablaablaa .
, around 3.51 pm , we went back to the mrt station .
, top up & headed back to bedok inter to meet all the DOLTS .
, after that , we headed back to SIMEI ~ EastPointMall ;
, to see the DOPES sing .
, it was so fantastic [:
, they sang veryveryvery WELLL !
, took lots of pics . was a bit crazy .
, den , they wanted to eat but some of the DOLTS & DOPES had to go .
, me too ! i went to the hospital .
, byebye to them .
, i bought OldChangKee as mummy had ordered .
, walked all the way to ChangiHospital .
, since there is no PASS to go , mummy had to come down & passed me the PASS .
, i told mummy to go home first as she had been there from the afternoon .
, so , left me , aunty & uncle .
, we waited until 9 pm , salam grandad & off we go .
, if grandad is well tmrw , he can go home !!!!!
, yeahh . so grandad , please get well sonn ayee .
, after that , aunty & uncle decided to buy stuff from MrBean .
, den , i took bus 17 , aunty & uncle took bus 5 .
, reached HomeSweetHome , eat , den watch CINTA FITRI at SCTV ;
, as todae is the last day of episode 4 [:
, so tired , went to SLEEP .
, GoodNitex ! TakeCare !
, [:

! WENT TO HOSPITAL !

2009-11-13T16:54:00.000-08:00

, todae ? nothing much ,
, at 3 pm went out from house to meet mummy at hospital .
, i told her to wait for me at the taxi stand .
, denden , went up to ward 44 ;
, grandad was sleeping , so mummy planned to go & eat for a while .
, after eating , went back up .
, grandad was awake [:
, talked to him .
, todae , his condition is a bit better as he laugh a lot .
, the thing that made him worst is his phlegm .
, the doctor wanted to suck it out , but grandad doesnt want to & he will but the thingy .
, hmmm . he was coughing badly .
, hope he will get well soon .
, so , was over there until nearly 9 pm .
, decided to go home as the next day will be going there again .
[:

! AT LAST !

2009-11-12T04:03:00.000-08:00

, hmmm .
, i am so sad to say this , but ....
, my grandad is admitted in hospital .
, was so sad to see his condition .
, GOD , please let him get well soon ayee .

, todae ?
, wanted to visit my grandad , but , was cancelled .
, coz , aunty was there , so me & mummy will visit him tmrw coz we take turns .
, so , was so boredd at home .
, as per normal . nothing to do .
, den , when i was playing the comp , 3rd bro was like disturbing me .
, i dont noe why but todae his mood was like , very good .
, first time i see like that .
, so , the two of us was crazy laughing & disturbing each other .
, den accidentally , i kick his butt .
, hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha .
, LOLLL .
, k . thats all for today k . !
, byebye .
, take care .
, [:

! FAMILY OUTING !

2009-11-10T18:03:00.000-08:00

, honestly ,
, i felt so sad when i get to noe that my friends are going outing together with their families .
, i just couldnt believe that i cried yesterday after getting a msg from a friend of mine telling me that her families are having a outing as one .
, the last outing me & families had was like how many years ago .
, why cant my family have a memoriable outing ?
, i really miss my 1st bro like hell .
, my siblings are all grown up & we are not like what we used to be when we were small .
, mummy used to be all the 4 of us go to the beach , zoo & many more .

, after watching yesterday story on the tv , i had decided to plan for a family outing .
, ONLY MY FAMILY .
, you noe what i used capital letters ?
, coz people that are not invited [ not you guys larh ] , they are so KPO coz they wanna follow .
, hmmm .

! I LOVE MY FAMILY !

! CAN BE CRAZY !

2009-11-09T22:06:00.000-08:00

, sowie for not updating coz i dont have much stories to tell .
, now , will let u all noe what had happen today .

, went to school as there was a D&T workshop for 'N' LEVEL .
, it was like just 45 minutes ? cool ayeee .
, denden
{ me , fidi , choo & min }
, planned to go tamp to eat & walkwalk coz we miss each others to the coreee .
, so , min & choo go different ways as both of them went home first as they need to go to sengkang .
, me & fidi took 69 & headed there .
, fidi was hungry , we told min & choo that we will be eating first .
, after that , meet both of them at ISETAN as me fidi was window shopping .
, den , continue to window shopping .
, visit lots of shopp .
, mummy , i wanna buy that shoe .
, me & min wanted to buy the same shoe & split shirts .
, yeahhh .
, for the class bbq outing ykoww .
, coz i like dont have clothes to wear n that day .
, so , yarhh .
, around 2 plus we planned to go home .
, den, mummy came home .
, slept with her .
, woke up , watch tv .
, denden , couzin came .
, entertain them , after that , they went home .
, mummy was so tired , she went to sleep .
, bros went out .
, left me & uncle .
, we were searching the youtube about the POTONG KEPALA video thingy but there wasnt any .
, searched for like 1 hour . LOL .
, den uncle asked wether wanna watch a ,alay ghost story together , i mean like he will watch together with me .
, but i told him that i was scared . i cant watch ghost story in the night .
, can die oiii !
, so , planned to sleep .
, good nitex !

! BETRAYER !

2009-11-07T17:44:00.000-08:00

, i am sorry to say this , but i have to .
, coz , this is the only way i can let out my problems .
, people would say that i am childish bout this matter , BUT , it really hurts my feelings when i get to noe the truth .
, fidi even cheered me up , but its difficult for me .
, i need time .

, we are close ;
, we smile together ;
, we laugh together ;
, we make jokes together ;
, BUT ,
, why cant u tell me the truth ???
, why ?
, why ?
, why ?

, i noe u hate us .
, but why one of them is still there ?
, gosh , it makes me feel more disappointing towards u .
, hmmmm .
, jus to let u noe ,

, I FEEL REALLY HURT !

! BOREDDDD !

2009-11-05T00:31:00.000-08:00

, sowie , i got nothing better to do ! LOL .

, hey peeps !
, i am now damn BOREDDD .
, holidaes seems to be boredd for me .
, of course la .
, i never go out what .
, arhhh . what the hell .
, ouh ya , sowie for not updating yesterday coz there was nothing to talk about .
, actually , today i also have no idea what to talk about .
, LOL .
, ok , hmmm .
, will try to tell you all something .
, errrmmmm .
, i really , really , really miss my DOLTS & DOPES families .
, we can only like meet during December ?
, walau ehhhh !
, hmm . i miss the fun with them .
, so , next outing , tinggg tongg !
, escape theme park !
, its quite boreddd there but we have no choice .
, we have no place to go .

, ouh ya !
, i planned to make a outing for myself & sec 1 peoples that i am close with .
, coz , we are like sisters & brothers .
, yarhhh2 ! have to !
, especially with lyana !
, she is my laughing patner .
, my gang larh katerkan !

, k , i seriously out of idea what to talk about .
, so , will update again tmrw k !
, check it out !
, byebye !
, tc !

! WENT BOWLING WITH BRO , MUM & FIDI

2009-11-03T04:14:00.000-08:00

, todae ?
. had LOADS of fun !
, i swear ! this is the first time i had spent with both my lovely bro & my bestie !
, seriously , THANK YOU TO MY BRO ~ Syed Hashreen Bin Syed Karim !
, love you the most .
, although you scold me , but i can see that you really care for me !

, k ! sobsob . stop it shafirah . this is not the time to start all the sadness .
, back to the story .

, so , played for 3 games . i did not win .
, i wasnt too good anyway . bro ? he was the winner for all the games .
, i was like , what the hell . not fair .
, maybe i need more practice .
, ouh ya . not forgetting ~ fidi dropped the bowl ball two times . LOL .
, hmmm . after that , went to eat with mummy , bro & fidi .
, denden , bro went off . so , me , mummy & fidi headed home .
, was so tired .

, i really hope fidi had fun . i promise the two of us will go bowling again k ?

! WHAT A LIFEEEEE !

2009-11-01T19:07:00.000-08:00

, okaaay ,
, first of all , i would like to say sorry for not updating quite a long time .
, i was busy with the camps etc .
, so , i will tell you what had happened for these few days .

, i am glad that i get promoted to SECONDARY 4 next year .
, i swear i am gonna study hard so that i get to go for holidays as what bro had promised . IF I PASS .
, i missed my 312 as we really had LOADS of MEMORIES in our heart . we do fight , have some misunderstanding , tease one another & lots of other things that can make people angry , BUT we cant deny that we still LOVE one another .
, as on 30.10.2009 , each of us cried for one another as we are scared to lose the happiness of 312 .
, lots of gerls were crying , all the gerls & boys hugs each other no matter what race we are , no matter what gender , no matter where we come from , WE ARE UNITED AS ONE .
, as for the people who retained or went to NT , i wished you the best & please STUDY HARD PEOPLE ! so that we can be together in the same class again ! please ! i am begging u . i really miss you guys . ouh ya ! DONT GIVE UP ! STRIVE FOR THE BEST !

, after that , on the same day , went to JALAN BESAR STADIUM to collect our soccer prize . the money ? not yet coz they have not divide it yet .
, cant wait . i am not gonna spend the money coz i will need it to go for HOLIDAYS ! yeahhh !
, watch the game ~ SAF FC vs TAMPINES ROVERS FC
, the score was 0 - 0

, denden , the next day ~ 31.10.2009
, early in the morning , went for the youth leader camp .
, the camp was a BOMBASTIC !
, i really love it .
, so went home on 1st november ~ sunday .
, reached home , wanted to wait for mummy , but she was late as i was so sleepy .
, slept from 3 pm to 10.30 pm ?
, can you imagine ?
, my 1st bro larhhh .
, he put his son on top of my stomach when i was sleeping .
, i tiredd ynowww !
, entertain my nephew ,
, around 12.30 am i was sleepy & tired again .
, dont bother bout my nephew as mummy was there ,
, so , went to sleep again .

, k larh . until here first k .

, gosh , he lovess RED & his favourite number is 9 ?
, we were like talking to each other all the way .
, but , what about our age ?
, am i in love ?????

! BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD !

2009-10-23T05:14:00.000-07:00

, gosh ,
, got back exam paers .
, i mean only results .
, but it is not the overall .
, so yeah , really hope to pass & promoted to sec 4 .
, i was damn sad for social studies & chemistry papers .
, i studied BUT end up i nearly got a pass siaaa !
, argh ! nvm , it have not combine the overall yet .

, after school , had lots of CRAPS with AFA , FIDI & ZIZIE !
, AFA is like retarded siaa .
, noting better to do .
, disturb people only .
, ish3 ! very baddddd !
, wanted to wait for shakila , but it seems that she is too late .
, so , me & fidi decided to go home .
, reached home , was so sleepy , so , decided to sleep .
, woke up around 5 plus denden , help to do the chores .
, biaser larhhh . rajin katerkan .
, LOL .
, after that , mummy came home & buy for me & bro cup noodle ( myojo ) .
, so now , currently ~ facebook-ing , msn & watching television .
, byebye !
, take care !

! WHAT HAPPENED GUYS !

2009-10-22T05:33:00.000-07:00

, gosh !
, what had happened these days ?
,why are all my friends keep on telling me that they got FRIENDSHIP problem ?
, after one problem , another problem ?
, why guys ?
, i thought we should be happy now as exams are over BUT , what's all these nonsense ?
, why are all the stupid problems popping up ????
, its quite sad to see my friends problem . , they are suffering .
, i really hope i can help them !
, i am lucky to have a bestfriend like FIDI .
, we do have problems , BUT we manage to solve the problems in that minute .
, i seriously bersyukur larhhh .
, hmmm . , pls guys , dont be like this .
, come on ! cheer up !
, in FRIENDSHIP , there will always be misunderstanding .
, that is normal .
, everyone has to go through it .
, i just hope that your FRIENDSHIP will be fine .
, remember
, DONT EVER SUFFER BECAUSE OF FRIENDSHIP !
, THAT's NOT WORTH IT !

! CHEER UP FRIENDS !

! WENT TO EAST COAST PARK !

2009-10-21T05:15:00.000-07:00

, todayyy i was having lots of fun !
, me , FIDI & MARDHY went to east coast park for cycling .
, but sad coz SHIKIN didnt follow . hmmmm .
, so , coincidencely , we saw ,
~ SYAFIQ , IRFAN , FIRDAUS , ZAMIR , FARIS , LAKSMAN & 2 OTHER CHINESE BOYSSS !
, it was SYAFIQ's BIRTHDAYYY !
, so , slack there for 2 hours .
, was so tired BUT we still had lots of FUN !
, we took some pictures tooo .
, i will not upload all k !
, the rest of the pics are uploaded at facebook !
, so , reached home nearly 6 pm .
, tireddd seyyy .
, denden , layan my BRO .
, something happened & we like cannot stop talking bout it .
, LOLLLLLLL !
, k la . byebye ! good nitex !
;D

should watch this video ! so shweeeettttttttt !!!
but for mardhy dont have arrr . hmmm .

! LOVE MY LITTLE FIRDIANA !

2009-10-20T04:00:00.000-07:00

, todae ?
, was so damn fun !!!

, finally , exams are overrrrrrr ! I LOVE IT !
, so , my classmates was shouting all overrr the rainbow
, LOL .

, so , after exam , went out with my BESTIE , NOOR FIRDIANA BTE ASNAN !
, miss going out with her !
, at first , we doesnt have energy to do crazy things .
, BUT , after eating the chicken rice at $1.80 , our energy suddenly appear .
, we were having fun > shouting , laughing & the most , enjoying our window shopping !
, we bought > RIPPLES's SLIPPER & FRIENDSHIP KEYCHAIN !
, friendship keychain has the name > BEST BUDS .
, so , fidi took the one with the word BEST & i took the one with the word BUDS !
, sweet rite ? I REALLY LOVE IT seyyy !
, ouh ya , the RIPPLE slipper > we bought the same pattern & even the same design !
, besties what ? that is why must samesame . hehehehe .
, hmmm . she wanted to buy the VANS shoe . i really hope i can buy for her . hmmm . i will try my best to save money & buy for you k ! but i cant promise . it will take quite a long time ! hmmm . kesian bestie aku !
, so , reached home around 3.15 pm .
, denden , mummy came home , bought snacks .
, yumyum ;D
, after that , me & bro was laughing like crazy about the person in SURIA who is like a PONDAN !!!!
, LOL . bro laarhhhh ! he got nothing better to do & keep on laughing ! lame ! but funny also leyyy ! hahahah .
, den , bro get nag from mummy ! hahahah . padan muker dier !
, jgn nangis taw ! nanti banjir ! LOL .
, on facebook , i got nothing to do seyyy . with KILA & SHAZA ! like retarded siaaa ! LOL .
, k la . stop here first k .
, byebye .
. take care !

! PITY THE COUNTRIES !

2009-10-19T07:11:00.000-07:00

, firstly , i would like to congratulate my 1st bro as he had just passed his driving license .
, cool man ! all my bro's are able to drive a car already . all we need now is just to buy a car .
, weeeeeee ! best ! it will be turn next time ! i just cant wait .

, ok , back to today's topic .
, all the way facing the computer . i did study a bit for tmrw's maths paper .
, i really hope i can pass & of course to get a good result .
, hmmm . wishing all my friends good luck k !

, around 8.30 pm my bro came with my sis in law & nephew .
, switched on the television as i wanted to watch PROJECT HOPE .
, oh god ! it is so PITY to see them in that condition .
, what if Singapore is like that ? what will happen to us ?
, we are so lucky to be in this country .
, i just wanna say , GOD , PLEASE HELP THEM . GIVE THEM HOPE TO SURVIVE ! PLEASE !
, i can cry watching the show . so people , DO DONATE ayee !
, YOU MUST BE SINCERE ! REMEMBER !
, THE PEOPLE SUFFERING ARE ALSO A HUMAN BEINGS TOO !

, stop here k .
, wanna continue watching the show . hmmm .
, byebye , goodnitex !
, ouh ya , dont forget to pray to GOD bout our neighboring countries ayee !

! HAD A GREAT FUN !

2009-10-18T05:40:00.000-07:00

, todae ?

, was the fun of all .

, firstly ,
, went out with shaza ;
, den , went to inter mac .
, ate , drink & headed to the library to meet her aunty .
, her aunty was cute .
, i hope i can get lots of aunty like her sia !
, after that , went to NTUC as her aunty wanted to buy something .
, den , they took 38 & i took 225 to go home .
, sowie , no pics for that .

, after that ,
, fidi came to my house .
, we studied as she wanted me to teach her do some maths question .
, what are friends for rite ?
, denden , ate ROTI KIRAI ,
, coincidencely , fidi told me that her mother also cook ROTI KIRAI .
, walau ehhhhh !
, of course la !
, besties !
, hahha !
, after eating ,
, went to bedok inter .
, walkwalk ,
, of course our crazyness started !
, take picture & saw zamir .
, after that , fidi sent me at her bus stop there .
, WE WERE TALKING ABOUT SOMETHING THAT IS VERY SECRETIVE !

, hahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahah

, sowie , cant tell you guys .
, ouh ya !
, fidi , thank you very much ayeeeee !
, love you the most !
, muackz !

! BITCH LIAR !

2009-10-17T04:53:00.000-07:00

, firstly ,
fetch FIDI under her block .
, den ,
headed to bedok inter to meet ;
{ shakila , hanisah , efah , afa , aliff , shaza , yasmin & zizie }
, after that ,
went to PASIR RIS mrt to meet ;
{ isma , elham , hafiz , ben & rajiv }
, was damn fucking fun .
, when everyone was there ,
we headed to CIKGU WANI's house as she had OPEN HOUSE .
, ate , drink , play .
, den saw MR MUHAMMAD SHADIQ .
, he also give us duit rayerrr .
, so lucky .
, thankyouthankyou !
, after that ,
went to HANISAH's house .
, slack at there for a while .
, around 5 plus , we headed home .
, went home with shaza & yasmin .
, when reached home ,
FUCKING PISSED OFF !
CB !
, hate it siaa !
BITCH LIAR !
, she wont ever understand me !

photos will be uploaded tomorrow !

! HOLIDAYS COMING !

2009-10-16T03:07:00.000-07:00

, gosh , left with maths paper 1 .
, hmmmm .
, but i am still feeling scared of maths .
, so , in school was nothing much todae .
, as i was doing the exam , MAK BEDAH ,
was stretching den suddenly she acidentally knocked on shaza's head .
, hahahhahaha . i was like laughing all the way .
, LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL !
, k , its over anyway .
, hmmm .
, after exam , took 222 with fidi coz she always sent me home ;
so , i wanted to sent her also .
, but , i didnt sent her at her house .
, just took the same bus with her .
, reached home & went to sleep .
, mummy came back from werk , den ordered KFC !
, yummy ~
, so now , currently chatting with ;
KILA > BESTIE ;
NISAH > BESTIE ;
MARDHIAH > BESTIE
&
talking on the phone with ;
NATASHA > BESTIE

, k , gtg .
, byebye .
, take care .

! I MISS SOMEONE !

2009-10-15T05:34:00.000-07:00

, i really have to say this ,
' i miss someone '
, hmmm , it was so suddenly man !
, i think , he is really the one !
, only choo understand ; choo , dont tell anyone .
, okaaay , EOY is gonna finish soon .
, left with 2 more papers to go .
, after that , ENJOY TIME !
, gonna spend my HOLIDAYS as fun as possible .
, hmmm .
, this saturday i think i will just be at home & spend time with my second nephew .
, arrr . BOREDDDD !
, i really hope i will pass EOY !
, cant wait to see my results on 22 october 2009 .
, hmmm . hope the best for all my friends & also HIM .
, k la . got to go .
, will update on SATURDAY k .
, so , check it out then . , byebye . good nitex !

, IMISSYOU !

! WONT BE UPDATING FOR THE TIME BEING !

2009-10-10T20:44:00.000-07:00

i am so sorry but i have to tell you guys this : i wont be updating for this few days as i will be concentrating on my EOY ! i will start to update again only if i have time k ! so check it out when i had updated !

, okaaay ! i think that my probs are all gone . now the only problem is the EOY ! i am happy as i could resolve all my probs so that i can easily concentrate like how i had promised MRS TOH .

, its like 6 more days EOY is gonna finish ! ohhhh ! i hope i can end it now ! but too bad , i cant ! hmmm .

, after my examinations , i am ready to form a _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ if i get GOD's willing . i hope & i will pray for the best .

, my family members & friends had always supported me in all the decisions i made . i am happy with whatever i have now .

, i just cant wait for the holidays coz i ma gonna ROCK THE PARTY ! i am gonna enjoy as much as i can ! woooohooooooo !

, suffer now , happy later ! that is what bro told me !

, okaaay , i will end here k ! i am gonna miss my blogging BUT , i will come back once my EOY is done !

, byebye !

, take care !

, miss you !

! SICKED !

2009-10-08T03:42:00.000-07:00

damn , i am sick !
why must it be this time ?
i am taking exam next week siaaa .
GOD , pls let me get well soon !
todae ?
didnt do much as i was sick .
my friends were all asking me wether i am fine ?
thanks friends for being there for me .
after school , went home straight with FIRDIANA .
bro told me to take taxi but i dont want to waste money .
so , on the way home , saw FIDI's grandmother .
she gave me HARI RAYA money .
THANK YOU VERY MUCH .
reached home , was so hungry .
but nothing to eat . s
o , told mummy to buy food for me .
i slept & woke up around 4 plus .
ate , take medicine & here i go updating .
i am scared if at night i will feel baddd having fever .
denden ,
mummy woke up and asked why i didnt wake her up as she wants to see her show . sorry mummy !
she told me wether i can follow her later go shop .
ok can ! no prob mummy .
until here first k !
i am tired . need lots of rest .
byebye .
take care .
;D
i LOVE you ,
i NEED you ,
i MISS you ,
i WANT you !

iraah - deeevil LOVE _ _ _ _ _

! SOWIE FOR NOT UPDATING !

2009-10-07T04:24:00.000-07:00

, guys , sowie for not updating ! i was quite busy & lazy to update laa ! since my NENEK told me to update , here i go updating ! have fun reading !

firstly ,
FIDI came to school ,
BUT , NENEK didnt .
hmmm . so saddd !
if not , we will always disturb each other .
so , went for class .
mr malek took our class attendance .
first period > free lesson coz our teacher didnt come to school .
recess > i brought HONEY CORNFLAKES for my ATOK !
denden ,
english > watched kung fu panda .
maths > was doing worksheet for revision .
after school ,
since NENEK is absent ,
{ irah , fidi , zizie , choo }
went home together .
sent FIDI at the bus stop den headed home .
i should actually follow my mum ,
but i am not feeling well as my sore throat is killing me !
so , slept for like nearly 4 hours .
mummy is not home yet .
hmmm . boreddd .
currently watching tv with both my 2nd & 3rd bro .

those are the photos that we took during rayerr ! love them ! they really make me happy !

! U ARE MY BESTIE !

2009-10-01T05:59:00.000-07:00

sometimes ,
it is difficult to forget someone that you really cherish ,
coz , only that person understands you .
as for me ,
i need someone to always be beside me & understand my feelings .
people always said that whenever they see me ,
i will always be smiling .
BUT ,
no one knows how my heart is hurting .
i dont noe why i cant show my sadness to my friends .
maybe becoz by sitting with them ,
only laughter will be surrounding the area .
yeahhhh .
its quite sad to feel what i am feeling rite now .
hmmmm .
i hope someone will really understand me & lend me their shoulders for comfort .

as for you ,
i am sorry .
i do not want to control your life .
but , i am always scared if you will leave me one day .
coz , you always understand my feelings ;
whenever i have problems ,
you will be the first one comforting me .
i miss all our moments together as BESTFRIENDS ;
we sit under the void deck together ;
we laugh out loud together ;
we eat & drink together ;
we share our problems together ;
we have the same passion ;
we love a number that is opposite with one another ;
we live at storey that is both of our favourite number ;
we love the colour that is within the family's colour ;
our names can be matched into one ;
lastly ,
when ever we fight , it only takes a few hours & we will talk to each other again .

now, i really want to say sorry if i had done anything wrong .
i juz want you to noe that i seriously cherish you as my BESTFRIEND !

take care !
byebye !
good nitex !
:)