Fifteen :)

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i was a bit angry with one of my teacher coz she changed my place ! can you feel how sad it is when you are told to seat separately with your own bestfren ? argh ! but nvm . get to talk to ELAINE . i really thought that she was unfriendly . BUT , dont ever judge people from their looks . she is actually very kind . :D we talktalk . sowie . its private ! hehe . LOL . :D

after school , was damn angry with NURUL SHAKILA BTE JOHARI ! :(
why should she do all the things alone when none of the rest doing ?
stupid rite ! errrrrrrghhhhhh ! scolded her . got to do so coz she is too PATIENT !
den , help her juz for a while coz i have to go home .
i m fasting todae . that is why no mood . hehe . :D

hmmm . tmrw is my biggest dae ! BUT , many family probs are not yet solve ! how ? hmmm . nvm . whatever it is , i really hope the best for everyone k ! byebye . tc .

IRAHH CYGG KAMUU ! HANYERR KAMUU ! :D

seriously , today is so MISERABLE . dont ever asked me what happen today coz it really SUCKS !

i wont elaborate what happen todae but will tell you what happen yesterday which is on 25 JULY 2009 ( saturday )

went for match . have to be there by 5.30 pm coz we really have to train ourself . start match at 7.00 pm . i really thought that we would loose to YOUNG WOMEN . to my shockness , we WON ! not to be action , but i am really proud of SHIDAH ! she is our champion scorer . because of her , i get to gain up my stamina . thanx SHIDAH . ouh ya ! the toilet was damn fucking nice siaa ! SUPERB ! :D
score > 1 - 0

after match , coach treat us eat exactly in front of the stadium . thanx coach .
finished eating , me & FIDI decided to go home as the time was quite late & we were scared if there wont be anymore bus for us to go home .

reached home around 11.30 pm . was so tired , put all the dirty clothes in the basket den , went to sleep . ahhhhhhh ! woke up late the next day !

k la . until here first k . tired alrealdy .

tmrw school . not forgetting , tmrw is my adek sedare's birthdae !

till here . byebye . tc .

2 more dayss ! :D

firstly , i am damn nervous to go to school tmrw . we have to wear our traditional clothes as my school will be celebrating racial harmony day .

hmmm . today at school was ok . not so bored . was discussing with my classmates about tmrw .

i m gonna wear RED . sort of kebaya . jyeah ! with palm shoe .

ouh ya . during maths leeson , miss saw was damn pissed with us . hehe . LOL .

went home with fidi , mel , siti & heikal .

reached home , watch tv . den talktalk with firah on the phone . the 2 of us was damn stress . hmmm .

den , help starlight & choo to print photos .

k la . until here first k . tired ar . wanna sleep .

tata . byebye . tc !

todae ? hmmm . okok la . woke up in the morning . my youngest anak sedare slept at my house . so , he was kicking me all the way . had to wake up . hmmm .

play with him . bath him den , mamam . after zohor , get him ready . coz need to sent back . his brother school , so he did not slept at my house . went to pasir ris . slack there for 45 min den went to my sedare house at pasir ris also . went to changi village after that .

got a msg from yaseen . he said that he wanted to meet me . hmmm . so , will be meeting him on monday after school . he wanted to take me , but , nvm . dont want others to think negatively .

tomorrow got match . ouh ya . did not get JERSEY NUMBER 9 !!! but nvm . get JERSEY NUMBER 15 !!! i like number 15 also . its ok . so , really hope that tmrw SPFC will win k ! will be playing left-back . bro say , we be good IF we keep on trained on it . k la . gtg . byebye . tc .

currently watching APM & msging yaseen .

heyy ! sowie for not updating yaws ! busy la . hope you guys understand k .
so , will tell you guys what happened for the week .



13 JULY 2009 ( monday ) > nothing much happen . was quarelling with someone . but , everything was solved . it is not my fault anyway . hmmm . she was begging me to forgive her . hmmm . nvm . its over . no point talking to her anyway . not worth it . k la . nothing to update for this day .

14 JULY 2009 ( tuesday ) > its natasha ' s birthdae . we had planned something & hope that it will be successful . me & fidi brought our training stuff because there is not enough time for us to go back . hmm . after school , we brought natasha to block 1 & start our plan there . she was shouting at us she was not too happy . coz she had juz done her hair treatment . so , whatever . she should not do treatment when she noes that we are gonna SABO her rite ? finish everything , aliipp say that he wanna go home with me coz long time never go home together . den , i said to him that i m not going home , he asked me wether can sent him to the bus stop at the bridge ? so , i said , hmmm , ok ! sent aliipp bro at the bus stop . after all that , me and fidi went training . reached home around 10 plus pm .

15 JULY ( wednesday ) > hmmm . went to school as per normal . met with fidi at the cc den , walk to school together . lessons as per normal . hmmm . damn bored siaa . den , after the last lesson , went home .

16 JULY ( thursday ) > today is the very nervous day for me & fdi . we got match ! argh ! this is our first time . but the coach say that it doesnt matter wether we win or lost coz that is the rule of all games so , went to rajiv and ask him to borrow me his soccer shirt . number 9 you noe ! red some more ! woohoooo ! thanx bro !

hmmm . todayy was quite bored but FIDI cherish my dayy ! thanx . she called me in the morning to follow her but mummy sayy cannot coz of some reason . sowie FIDI . so met her up at 2 pm . i am seriously happy to see FIDI in this state . i miss her smile that she used to have . but now , i can see it again . i miss you gerl ! so , she went over to my house . mummy told her to eat . den , we decided to slack under the block . talk about her new life . ya FIDI . you have to carry on ! its good that you had realise ! den , we took pictures . miss taking pics with her siaa ! we planned something . den , also planned bout the training . it seems that we have to bring all the things for training to school . argh ! nvm . told mummy that i wont be going home after school on tuesday den she say okayy !

hmmm . this weekends really sucks ! nothing to do siaa ! nvm . countdown > 16 more days ! yahoooo !

pictures will be uploading soon k !

todae , woke up around 8 plus in the morning . help mummy den she sayy later want to go to my cousin's house coz got birthdae party .

so , reached their house at 2 pm . gave the birthdae present den , sat for a while . people keep on coming & going out from the house . met all my cousin's . wahhhhh ! long time sia never see them . my adek sedare all grow taller already & they not so childish lyke how they were last tyme . suddenly , my abang sedare bring one gerl & introduce her to us . omg ! she is damn pretty sakk ! wohoooo ! kalau jadi kakak ipar aku kan bagos . backback , so , den suddenly she sat beside me & talk to me . hmmm . she said that she was from PING YI SEC also ? can you imagine . den my bro said that PING YIANS all KENTAL ! den i said that GREENVIEW more SUCKS k ! haha . LOL . den , at 6 pm , me & mummy went off .

after maghrib , another cousin called & said that she wants to bring us out . i really love to go out with them coz we take lorry . i love the lorry that the back part is open . get lots of fresh air . haha . LOL . was sitting at the back ALONE . wohoooo ! best ! so , went to see my aunty cook for ' orang kahwin ' . hmmm . quite bored there .

den , went ot tanjong pagar at the railway there . want to give something to someone . denden , went home . reached home nearly 12 am . so tired , went to sleep .

byebye . tc .

I can't make it alive on my own

But if you have to gothen please boy just leave me alone

'Cause I don't wanna see you and me going on our separate ways'

Begging you to stay if it isn't too late

I'm sorry for breaking all the promises

That I wasn't around to keep

It's all of me , this time is the last time

I will ever beg you to stay

But you're already on your own way

But you're already on your own way

blogged @ 8:06 PM

todae , i dont noe why i will alwaes be bad mood . especially during D&T . ya , maybe due to the stress i have . ( besties prob , family prob & my own prob ) . but whatever it is , i will alwaes be patient to solve the probs k .

so , just now , at 3.00 pm , sat at the canteen with my friends . was laughing lyke crazy coz RAJIV & ISMA was shocked to see my hand . hehe . kelakar sak rajiv ! hehe . LOL . haiii . whatever it is , they are my BROTHERS ! so , i dont even care what you guys wanna seyy !

backback . ouh ya ! before i forgot , i wanna apologise for not updating coz my comp ROSAKKKKK ! so , juz now den being repaired .

21 more daes ! count down !

as you all noe , sundayy is alwaes a family dayy ! so , my aunties came to my house & also my bro families . was so happy to see them as they are well enough . we wanted to playy games but too bad , mummy dont noe where she put . haiyaa ! nvm . so , was catching my nephew all over the house . but , my second nephew was sicked . hmm . dont worry boyy , you will get well soon k ! we eat , we drink , we watch tv & lastly we share lots of jokes . todayy was the most memoriable dayy ! bro , aunty & mummy was so serious talking bout my bdae . they want to buy for me PSP RED colour , they want to bring me out somewhere that is special & many more . omg ! i hope my birthdayy this year will be super fun ! k la . dont noe what to sayy already . hmmm .

maybe it is sad for me to say all this . but , i have to . we are fated to be friends . we can be bestfriends but it is all up to u k . i wont force you anymore . juz wanna sayy that i am seriously sowie . thanx for all the love you had given me for about 1 year plus ! i will alwaes treasure you in my heart . we are bestfriend k !

so , didnt went to training juz now due to some probs . hmmm . bro was talking bout my birthdayy ! i juz kept quiet like as if i dont noe anything . hehe . LOL . got nothing much to do todae coz my aunty is coming . hmm . maybe going to school tmrw for the c cube meeting thingy . k la . hope to tell you guys trmw k ! byebye . tc !

sowie for not updating much . due to the activities i am having .


WEDNESDAY > i did not go to school . i did not expect to be sick . hmmm . called mrs toh & asked her that i want to go to school ? den she said stay at home . den , ok . msg fidi , told her that i did not go school . coincidencely , she also did not go to school that dae . i thought of going to sleep again . woke up , was damn bored . seriously dont noe what to do siaa . hmm . waited for mummy den we talk2 while watching tv . she said bout the freedom that she will be giving me . so happy but sad too . she said that i had done a good job for my exams & she knows that i can do it . she said that she will let me go out BUT , not to go home late . she also let me join football club . at last she understand me . thanx mummy . den , fidi called me in the night & asked me to follow her go to the doctor . so we met up at night .

THURSDAY > hmmm . saw him . was a bit sad , but i have to be patient rite ? so , gave mrs toh letter & she asked me wether i m ok . thanx for being caring ! in school , fidi was asking me wether i will be going training or not ? den i say , ya . so , after school went home with fidi & told her that i will call her when i am ready . actually , bro doesnt noe that i joined sengkang punggol fc ! was a bit scared to face him . but i was shocked that he did not scolded me . BUT , he gave me advices bout soccer . thanx bro . hehe . met fidi at bedok inter . went to buy drinks & donut den , went to take bus number 854 . saw ct & heikal running for the bus ! reached hougang arnd 5.40pm ? ya , so decided to slack under the block first coz our training start at 6.30pm . den , went in the stadium . the boys was still playing . so watch them first . den , chsnge to boots & start our TRAINING ! get to noe everyone . was a bit tired . but i m used to it . finish arnd 8.20pm . went to take shower . finish , in the bus 25 , me & fidi was sleepy coz tmrw skooling ! argh ! nvm , have to suffer . reached home arnd 10 pm .

FRIDAY > only the sec 3 will celebrate YOUTH DAYY ! so , we made a seagull to give to the orphanage . hmm . ct & i was struggling to do ! but i get it ! jyeah ! den , after school , went home with fidi & eat at the normal place . slack for a while & we went home . hmm . FIDI > dont be sad gerl . i m alwaes beside you k ? no one can take our friendship away . i love you gerl . tc .

whatever you need in this world , u have to be patient . that is what i m doing now . i m being patient to wait for the person that i really love in my life . i will only change my behaviour for him . not for anyone else . i noe that i had done many things that made him suffer . BUT for this time , i swear that i wont REPEAT my MISTAKES again k ! i promise !