Saturday, January 9, 2010'♥
i love elmo! ♥
, sorry for not updating this week .
, i was kinda busy with SCHOOL & my own FEELINGS ., SCHOOLS ?
, time past so fast when we are enjoying .
, it seems that it had been 4 years in ping yi secondary .
, so fast ? yeahhh . thats the fact .
, it was awkward to go to school on the first day as i was so nervous & keeps on asking my classmates wether we are really in sec 4 .
, i just cant believe it .
, ya , i am so stress about going to sec 4 .
, this is the year that everything shuts > holidays , slackings , outing .
, all are being closed for now .
, people might think that i am crazy , yes i am .
, coz , i am scared to let my families down .
, especially mummy .
, i am seriously aiming to go sec 5 .
, thats my future that i had to aim now .
, sec 5 , sec 5 , sec 5 !
, i was so scared to hear that most of my seniors cant make it to sec 5 .
, it was sad for them .
, hmmmm .
, as for now , i am already stress for D&T .
, lots of coursework to be done .
, if i am already stress for D&T , what about the other subjects ???
, ENGLISH , MATHS , C.SCIENCE , C.HUMANITIES & MALAY ???
, arghhhh . i can go crazy siaaa .
, i swear i am not ready for 'N' LEVEL !
, teachers had been saying that this year will be our tough year which determines where we go .
, SEC 5 ? ITE ?
, NO !
, i seriously dont want to go ITE !
, i dont want !
, trying to focus in class .
, buy those notes that are helpful for me .
, asking friends & teachers if i dont understand .
, and all i've got to do is > STUDY , PRAY & PERSEVERE all i can !
[ told mummy that i am not ready for 'N' LEVEL & she told me to study & focus . ]
, FEELINGS ?
, sometimes i cant focus to do my work is becoz of my feelings .
, i seriously want to get rid of this feelings just for this 8 months before 'N' LEVEL .
, with this feelings , it makes me weak .
, i alwaes pray to GOD to let out all my problems .
, as for now , i wont think anymore bout this feelings .
, i will keep it a secret to my ownself .
, not even my bestfriends , family members will noe it .
, it will just be between me & GOD .
, i will let GOD help me & see how HE will tell me to do about it .
, yeahhhh . i have to focus for 'N' LEVEL .
, thats all i have for this 8 months !
, all i have to re-assure now is 'N' LEVEL , 'N' LEVEL , 'N' LEVEL !
, thats what is in my mind ., so , starting from now ;
, i will only update twice a week .
, which means only on saturday & sunday ., dont ever think that my bloggy is dead aitess ., it will not happen ., so yeahh .
, will be updating more tomorrow as i will be having a birthday party .
, do read tmrw's post ayee .
, byebye .
, take care .
, sweet love ~
